| Spiritual suffering from comorbid pain and depression |
P18
| “When you don't have casts and stuff that people can see they don't understand what's wrong with you, because they don't see something wrong with you, and so I just stayed to myself, because I got tired of explaining the horrible pain that I was in, and so the pain was bad, but then the deep depression that I got into made it even worse. I didn't want to live anymore. I did not want to live, because I didn't know how to navigate the way my body was feeling, so, yeah, I attempted suicide.” |
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P4
| “And then when you have a lot of pain it's like you're not living. You don't have a life. All you got is this pain to look forward to every day when you wake up. That is not fun. You know?” |
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P5
| “… the pain can make you like you want to but you can't and that's depressing right there. You want to. I like dancing. I like doing different things. I can't get out there if my hip is hurting, you know, if my hip is hurting and stuff. That's depressing. I can't live my life, I think, to its fullest.” |
| Lack of understanding from healthcare providers |
P7
| “Some doctors you're really afraid to even talk about things... Or they really don't care that much. They're not really interested in because you got a lot of pain.” |
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P19
| “I have another doctor now, and the communication is good listening to her and everything, but I have a feeling that she doesn't really understand everything that I ‘m saying in the way that I want her to understand.” |
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P18
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I told him “I have been in therapy since ‘91. I know the difference. This is real.” So I just grabbed up my papers, walked right out of there, went to the information desk and said “I need someone who knows that fibromyalgia is real,” okay, so that was the only time I had an adverse– that there was no communication. He just said “I don't believe in fibromyalgia. Okay?”
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| Medications not worth the risk |
P19
| “I have a history that I have to consider before I take medications, so I try to avoid narcotics, because I never want to go back there again… “I had a doctor one time try to put me on a medication that was definitely habit-forming and could do even more damage in the long run, so I got some help to get off the medication she had put me on, and I now don't allow any doctor to give me anything like that.” |
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P10
| “A doctor suggested Percocet. I told that doctor to keep that prescription. The OxyContin's and all of that those doctors don't write it because they know I'm not going to take it.” |
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P16
| “I was taking amitriptyline and gabapentin and then Abilify, and it was making me depressed.” |
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P6
| “And I think it's an honor and a pleasure that somebody cares enough to say, “Well, let's find out what we can do to try to help some type of way without medication.” It's always medications. But it's another way with the mind. That little mind up there is a powerful tool.” |
| Push through and live through |
P4
| “Sometimes you just go to push through it. And I'm not saying push through every situation. But some stuff that got to get done, push through that pain and keep it going because that pain is going to be there no matter what. You know? That's my feelings on that.” |
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P11
| “But I try to push myself to do a little work out or exercises because if I stand still or lay still then it's going to stiffen up really bad on me.” |
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P9
| “So I like put it on the back of my mind that I don't have this pain. So it's not bothering me right now. That take it back to a mind over matter.” |
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P16
| “Please don't get it twisted. It hurts, but I just can't sit home. You need to move anyway.” |
| Non-pharmacological strategies for pain |
P13
| “Let go—that serenity prayer. Give it to the master, the higher being. I can't carry it. So it's a new day. So I really don't have any problem in managing my pain.” |
| and depression |
P4
| “…if you go to the pool and there are other people that kind lifts your spirit up, too, because sometimes they're going through the same things that you're going through.” |
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P5
| “But sometimes it's so depressing when you can't do things and you're by yourself. And I'll go to these groups. And it's like we talk, just different subjects. We may do an activity or whatever. Just the idea sometimes being in that group with other people that's not going through what I'm going through but everybody has got something that's going on with them.” |
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P9
| “I find a lot if you go to sleep with pain or you feel that pain drink yourself a cup of tea, nice hot bath or shower; I'm going to say bath, something you can sit in that water and feel it. With a little extra soap, nice hot cup of tea or whatever, relax that mind and that body before you climb into the bed, you'll feel 100 percent better.” |