| Shift from hopelessness to ownership and optimism for the future: All YPMs who described past experiences of hopelessness and thoughts of suicide now enthusiastically shared 5- and 10-year plans | “I still have a future” “I’m not alone” “I can” “hope” | This experience has really changed much. Like I said, when I look back I’m one person who never used to think about the future. I would just say today—I would even tell myself that "Ah, why am I even going to school? After when someone has HIV then will just find yourself you’re dead now." Now I know that someone with HIV is also able to lead a normal life as long as the person is adhering and paying attention, following the doctor’s instructions, and I also have the right to think ahead and think about my future, and the most important thing that can also help me is always love myself and pay more attention to myself, not to what people say. Mmm. Or if that negative thought would come in I would just tell that negative thought "Ah, move back!" (Female YPM) |
| Just like I always keep on telling the participants to say "You can become somebody who you want to become in the future despite your HIV status" I also keep on pushing to say "Yes, I can become the person who I want to become." (Female YPM) |
| It makes me think that I can do anything. Because I used to ignore myself. Thinking, no, I couldn’t do anything. No. That’s that way and do this. No. After that training, after meeting others, and so, then, I can do everything now. Yes. (Male YPM) |
| A call to serve community: Almost all YPMs also described new goals to serve their communities and other people living with HIV as doctors, midwives, pharmacists, and community leaders | “help” “inspire” “educate” | My professional goals, to inspire. Yeah. To inspire, mostly. Because mostly, in the world—in this world, you find out that we lack people to inspire us. That’s why we fall into the wrong traps. Yeah. We lack people to teach us the right ways, people who have been through that. Like, to be a right channel of me giving my experience to someone so that it can be helpful to that person. …I really want to be, like, the light of the world. So if there is anyone who needs someone to inspire, I’ll be there for them. Yeah. I’ll be there for them. (Male YPM) |
| It’s just removed a gift out of me… it’s more like a calling. (Male YPM) |
| …being an ambassador for the adolescents, changing negative thinkers to positive thinking… standing in the gap for the HIV positive living, those who are being discriminated and stigmatized…Not just in Zambia, but in different countries. (Female YPM) |
| Planning for healthy families:All YPMs shared how they want to get married and have healthy, HIV-negative children, a wish that many had not realized was possible until Project YES! | “negative babies” “God willing” “family” | Back then, I was even afraid to have a family….I remember I reached to a level of not having a child in my entire life, because I would just affect that child in my state. But now … I’ve got motivated. Whereby I can have a child. As long as I’m adhering to my medication, it will be fine and well. It will be HIV-free. …It feels nice—I want to be called daddy, a real father. Of which my son, he will not be in my state and my daughter not being in my state but be negative. (Male YPM) |
| Resilience: All YPMs also expressed feelings of determination and excitement when discussing their future professional and personal plans. | “determination” “resilience” “great faith” “hardworking” “not a person who gives up easily” “nothing will stop me” | I feel very confident, because I know that I can do it. Looking at the power–right now, I may not have anything to support me, as in, to stand with me, but I know that something will come up definitely. It is through my hard working, and being determined. Determination and having the resilience… If I sit down at the foot of the mountain and start crying that this mountain is just too high to go up, then I won’t do, and I won’t achieve anything. But if the mountain is too high, I’ll have to climb it, until [I reach] the top of its mountain. (Female YPM) |