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Balance between benefits and adverse effects of medication
| Weighing adverse effects and benefits |
‘They were turning out to be more bad than good’
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‘So the medication, it helps but it's the side effects of the medication that I didn't really like. That's why I was very rebellious against taking the medication at some points’
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| Benefits |
‘The first day I went into school after taking the medication and I remember we had a test and my teacher got the results from this test, I think it was in maths, and they were, like, “Is this yours?” It was perfect. Every answer was right’
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The medication helped me to concentrate and keep me in control when I was in school. Since then the medication has been really good, it works really well, especially when I'm in college and at work. |
| ‘I need this medication, I want this medication and I need it to survive in this world, basically, and if I don't take this medication this world won't accept me’
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| Ineffectiveness |
‘But I knew straightaway that when I got given that Ritalin that it was shocking. It didn't work at all’
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‘it will all start to become ineffective slowly but surely’
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| Dependence |
‘I don't want to get dependent by them, after a time I think I should just stop and maybe even move on to something else. I've got to keep on moving medication because it's not good for just staying on one lot of medication because it could damage you’
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| Side Effects |
‘I was waking up every morning being sick, without fail, every morning. I was pale. I was white as a ghost. I wasn't eating, I weren't sleeping, I weren't drinking’
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| Medication trials |
‘At first I was fine with it, but I've been changed to like five different ones. So I think it's sort of boring trying, because it's different side effects on all different ones. But it does the job when I'm at college, so’. |
| Effects on identity |
‘… it makes you different, and act differently, and your characteristics and all that, then you feel like you're not yourself. And actually, if you're not being yourself then it can affect your identity’
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| Comorbidity |
‘… I also have anxiety as well, so there's always a big balance between medication for this and medication for that … I can concentrate so well now, I'm also concentrating on the bad bits, the anxiety’
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| Feeling different |
‘I feel like ‘oh why should I have to take that?’ I just try and feel normal’
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Perceptions of ADHD
| ADHD will get better |
‘As soon as I found out I had it, every single person told me, even medical professionals, they all told me, “It will go away when you're about 17 or 18 and you'll be a normal person”’
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‘… it will probably calm down a bit more when I get older. But I will still always be that hyperactive child, and that's the ADHD in me’
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| Medication is to cope in school |
‘I think they targeted school as that was the battlefield that I needed to get beyond to give me a step in later life and once that was achieved it was, yes, you can do it on your own, you don't need us anymore’. |
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‘To be honest, I kind of felt like the school were just happy I'd take the medication because then I'd be like, not out the way but I'd just be quiet and just shut up, not really say anything’. |
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‘… I was just finishing school at the time and for a couple of years I didn't do anything. I wasn't at school so I didn't take the medication. I was only initially taking it for school’. |
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‘I finished school and I went to work, I didn't think I needed it anymore and I quit’. |
| Perceived ability to cope |
‘I did the stupid thing that's all teenagers who know better do, especially when they're on medication and they see that they are coping and don't actually tie it back to the fact that it's the medication that's meaning that they can cope. I took myself off the medication. I lasted a good couple of years before anything went sideways but then it went sideways in a big way’. |
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‘I don't know why I stopped engaging because I was very in denial at one point. I was like, ‘I don't need that. It's fine. I can manage myself,’ but it turns out that I really can't’. |
| Relationship to higher education |
‘I think definitely in the first year of university I'll need it because I find, especially with the anxiety and the ADHD, they kind of flare up when I'm put in a new environment’
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Life circumstances of the young person
| Moving |
‘So I was up in [another county], I then moved back down and basically I got lost out of the system’. |
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‘I moved a little while ago, and they said that they tried to get in contact with me, and I missed an appointment. And because I missed one appointment they just dropped me off the services’
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‘Young Person: Yes. My first year at college was a flop anyway. I moved in with my dad, who doesn't work … He didn't have the support that I needed to push me. So I ended up missing lectures if that's what you call them at college. Lessons, whatever, and then didn't turn up. Wasn't taking my medication and stuff like that and my education just stopped’. |
| Chaotic Lifestyle |
‘Well basically I dropped out … It's not like I dropped out, it's because I was obviously getting to that age where I wasn't in there no more, so they obviously dropped me out. I was going through hostels. Like I said, it was a bit of a weird situation where I didn't know what was actually going off’
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| Planning pregnancy |
‘Well they said that I would have to have contraception or the tablets but can't have the tablets and get pregnant’. |
| Prison |
‘I forgot to take my tablet one day and I ended up getting sent down [to prison] … When I came out of prison my behaviour was getting even more worse and it was coming to the point where I was getting stopped every single day by police because of my behaviour. I thought well I'm on licence, I'm going to come back to my tablets and get more help because obviously I've got a baby on the way now and I need my tablets’. |
| Continuing medication depends on future job |
‘I don't know how long I'm going to stay on it because, as you mentioned earlier, the whole idea going into the army and military, they don't really want you on medication because that's a bit of a liability’
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Interviewer: As you're getting older is there any reason why you would still continue it?
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‘Young person: If I get a job that I don't like or something I probably would’. |
| Concerns about driving on medication |
‘There's one thing that we've come up against lately with my medication is because I was wanting to start driving but because it's a controlled drug – [parent overspeaking] – I could get done for drug driving, it's against the law, unless I get a certificate from the doctor saying I'm allowed to drive. But no doctor has given a certificate out’
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Challenges in accessing services
| Difficulties in accessing appointments and prescriptions |
‘Interviewer: So is there anything that worries you about moving into an adult service?’
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‘Young Person: Not getting my tablets anymore’. |
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‘Interviewer: Is there anything else that you think might make you stop taking the medication?’
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‘Young person: Personally, no, as long as I've got access to it with a local GP wherever I am then I'd be happy to continue with it really, unless there was some kind of symptoms that it could bring up, then I might feel inclined to stop’. |
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‘It is a lot of dedication and a lot of money that I have to spend to get. So about £20 every time I go and see them. And another £8 to get the prescription’. |
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‘I was in college. I had just started college and I thought I was doing really well, I was like I'm doing really well, I don't need it, I hate the constant appointments, because I used to have to travel to [Town] for my appointments’. |