| Adverse psychological effects among individuals living in HIV-discordant couples | Q1 | “When I sat quietly at home on the day that we tested, my wife asked, ‘what are you thinking about?’ I responded, ‘do you think that I am contemplating about our results.’ She told me that she asked about this because she was worried that I could abandon the marriage.”(Male, 23 years, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Q2 | “I did not believe that this can be possible—all these years that I have been with her without telling her that I am positive. I said that ‘no, let us try another [testing] approach . . . to be sure this is true’.”(Male, 43 years, HIV-positive, Discordant) |
| Q3 | “How have you have been found like this [HIV-positive]? … how is it possible that this disease is now found in our marriage when I never had sexual intercourse with any other man?”(Female, 37 years, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Adverse psychological effects among individuals living in HIV-positive concordant couples | Q4 | “I felt very sad about my situation that I have HIV considering that I may die soon. I was heartbroken, and I felt that I may die as a result of this disease while I have little children that could be orphaned whilst very young.” (Female, 27 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q5 | “I was gripped with fear about how he would react if I tell him that I have HIV. I was worried how we will live together in this relationship.” (Female, 38 years, HIV-positive, Concordant). |
| Q6 | “I was happy that we knew that we both have HIV in this house. We knew about this together, and this removed a chance that one person would blame the other. We just accepted that we are an HIV-positive couple who would like to have a happy life.” (Female, 31 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q7 | “After self-testing, we did not regret anything when we knew that we are HIV-positive. We do not have any worries right now and we live the way we used to before testing.” (Male, 31 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q8 | “We just accepted that we are both positive. My wife did not complain or get disappointed. She did not do anything but just accepted that we are infected with HIV. It was not difficult for her to accept this.”(Male, 46 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q9 | “Although we were disappointed a little at first, we were also happy on the other hand that it was not a problem because I have HIV and so does my wife. We should just play to God to give us both a long life.” (Male, 47 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Sex-based differences in adverse psychological effects | Q10 | “I cannot divorce him because I think about the future of my children. If I end this marriage, I will put my children in trouble. The woman that my husband may marry after me cannot take good care of my children. I cannot also provide everything that the children need.”(Female, 37 years, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Q11 | “I see that he thinks a lot these days. When I speak to him, it seems as if he is not concerned. Nowadays when he comes back from work, he only plays with our child. In the past, he used to tell me many things that he had encountered, and we used to laugh, but now . . . he just stays quiet.”(Female, 28 years, HIV-positive, Discordant) |
| Q12 |
“I now feel sorry about myself because if this HIV. In all my youth, I was very careful until I got married to this man. I was fine [HIV-negative] all along until now.” (Female, 24 years, HIV-positive, Concordant |
| Q13 | “I regretted being in this relationship because we both tested HIV-negative before. I even told my sister that I am divorcing this man, but she said how can I divorce him when he has already damaged you?” (Female, 42 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q14 | “My friend [spouse] may know something about this [HIV infection] since he is a man and knows his conduct [sexual misconduct]. But for me, I have always lived without having boyfriends. But for a man, you cannot know how he behaves and what he does at his workplace. Since he never said anything [after testing HIV-positive], he definitely knew something about this. I think he is the one who infected me.” (Female, 38 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q15 | “I trust my wife. I do trust that she does not have other sexual partners… because she now knows Jesus…” (Male, 30 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q16 | “I do not believe that it is my wife who has infected me because she has always been faithful to me and there is nothing suspicious that she has done in this relationship.” (Male, 31 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Positive coping mechanisms for overcoming test-related adverse psychological effects | Q17 | “I trust him a lot now. The counselling we received after self-testing has brought encouragement that we should be trusting each other and that one of us should not go elsewhere [should not seek other sexual partners].” (Female, 26 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q18 | “For me, our relationship has been very good. I found that after receiving counselling by that friend of yours [member of the study team], we were encouraged, and our love was strengthened. We now love each other very much.”(Female, 28 years, HIV-positive, Discordant) |
| Q19 | “He has stopped moving about [having other sexual partners], even the alcohol that he used to drink, he stopped drinking these days. He does not appear to be having an affair [extramarital relationships] these days.”(Female, 37 years Female, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Q20 | “Most of the times we are together at home … It is not often that he goes out even during the weekend. When he comes from work, we are together … there has been nothing suspicious that he had done these few days.”(Female, 37 years Female, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Q21 | “I used to be unhappy most of the times … I was getting sick because of thinking too much that he might find other women, and this means that I would suffer. But now I do not think about that because we live trusting and loving each other.”(Female, 28 years, HIV-positive, Discordant) |
| Negative coping mechanisms for overcoming test-related adverse psychological effects | Q22 | “I went to test again (at a clinic) to find the truth because I know that HIV is found in blood and not saliva. It was difficult for me to believe that the results that I got using this device (HIVST) were real.” (Male, 30 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q23 | “I have tested several times and they still find that I am infected. That she does not have it [HIV virus], it is not true. I do not really understand that this is possible. Maybe she self-tested wrongly.”(Male, 43 years, HIV-positive, Discordant) |
| Q24 | “I do not have any trust that maybe I am truly negative or positive, I still live with uncertainty about my HIV status.”(Female, 19 years, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Q25 | “There were question marks because we were different [HIV-discordant]. I failed to understand how this was ‘thekable’ [possible]. I sometimes ask myself that possibly it is these sachets [locally distilled rum] that constantly burst [breaks and drink] that have burnt the virus inside me?”(Male, 32 years, HIV-negative, Discordant) |
| Q26 | “It is not through infidelity, razors or needle that we have HIV, no. The only answer is . . . that witches deliberately infected us with AIDS.”(Male, 31 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |
| Q27 | “… when I look at you now [male partner] . . . I see you as a monster because you have damaged my body [infected her with HIV]”(Female, 24 years, HIV-positive, Concordant) |