| Caregivers' impressions of disclosure as a process |
| He is still young now. I have the feeling that he may not be able to understand this, and that's why we haven't told him yet. (IDI, mother of 10 year-old boy) |
| I should tell her slowly and little by little. After all, she is growing up and she will learn a lot of things on her own. (IDI, mother of 12 year-old girl) |
| We have told her this. When she grew up, and began to understand a little. She knows that she has this disease. We told her how she got infected, and she understood. However, she is a kid after all, and cannot understand this disease very well. That's probably why she doesn't take her medication seriously enough. I plan to tell her clearly when she gets a little older. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old girl) |
| I have told her about her condition. But she doesn't really understand about the harm of this disease. I'll probably tell her when she is 14 or 15. She will have better understanding then. (IDI, mother of 11 y-o girl) |
| Some older kids asked me why they were on medication, because they did not know about their condition. They wonder why they were taking so many drugs every day and when they could stop. (FGD, clinician) |
| She won't be able to understand now even if I told her. All she knows is to take her medicine. She doesn't understand this condition at all. (IDI, mother of 11 year-old girl) |
| … he is too young now. He wouldn't understand even if we tell him. (IDI, mother of 10 year-old boy) |
| We don't let her read those materials displayed in the clinic. We are afraid that she might know. Let her learn about it gradually when she grows up. (IDI, grandmother of 10 year-old girl) |
| He is 14 now. We plan to wait and discuss with him when he is 18 or 19. At that time, we would talk to him about having a girlfriend. We will probably tell him to be careful and not to infect his girlfriend. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old boy) |
| He should be able to understand slowly. I ask the counselors here and she told me to discuss this with him little by little. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old boy) |
| He does, a little. We have told him some vaguely since two or three years ago, but he is probably not 100 per cent clear. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old boy) |
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| Full disclosure to young child: one example |
| He knows everything. We have already explained to him when he was little … We just said that this disease was serious. (IDI, father of 14 year-old boy) |
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| Adolescents' accounts of learning HIV status themselves |
| I read the label on my pill bottles and the instructions. (IDI, boy, age 13) |
| I learned about it when I went to the hospital, in recent years. I read [the results] myself, and I learned more about it later, slowly. (FGD, girl, age 17) |
| Eavesdropping. On my parents. (FGD, 13 year-old boy) |
| [I learned when I was] about 6 or 7 years old. [My parents] dared not to tell me at the beginning, but I found out myself later. I didn't learn from here. I learned it from promos on TV. I asked my mum what that disease was, and my mum told me that's what we have. At that time, I didn't know exactly what it was, I learned about it later slowly. (FGD, boy, age 15) |
| We haven't talked about this officially, but he loves internet, so he has probably looked them up on the Internet. There are labels on the pill bottle, he should know. He never asked me, but I didn't talk to him about this either … I think he knew two years ago. Once when we argued, he asked ‘do you really think I don't know why I have to take medicine every day?’ I stopped yelling at him then. (IDI, father of 13 year-old boy) |
| When I was 6 or 7 … all my classmates were talking, and they wouldn't play with me. (FGD, 13 year-old girl) |
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| Fear of stigma by caregivers and children |
| My mum told me not to tell anyone that I was on medication. They won't play with me anymore if I tell them. (IDI, girl, age 10) |
| I also told him to avoid being seen when he takes his dose (IDI, mother of 13 year-old boy) |
| He is still too young to keep a secret, so we cannot tell him. If he knows now and tells other people, I don't know what other people will think of him, nor how other people will treat us. (IDI, mother of 12 year-old boy) |
| I told her not to tell her classmates. (IDI, grandmother of 10 year-old girl) |
| He doesn't know about it yet. I plan to tell him when he is older, probably when he is about 16. He won't understand even if I tell him now. If I do tell, I'll worry that he tells other people. (IDI, mother of 12 year-old boy) |
| Some children in the facilities are orphans, and they were told clearly about their conditions … They are worried that they might be discriminated against … when they have to go to school. (FGD, clinician) |
| Some parents also worry that their children may tell other people about their conditions. Once, one child overheard his parents' conversation and learned about his condition. When he went to see a doctor for his cold, he told the doctor really loudly that he was HIV-positive when the doctor asked what was wrong. His mum was shocked and … worried that the child hadn't had any idea about the discrimination against this disease. (FGD, clinician) |
| The school he use to go to won't take him because his teachers know about his condition. (IDI, father of 14 year-old boy) |
| Some children living on campus are worried that their classmates may see them take drugs. (FGD, clinician) |
| It's most difficult at school. Those people would ask me why I took those pills when I was taking my medicine. I told them that I had a cold. After one semester, no one talked to me. Then I had a cold [more recently] and went to see the doctor for my rhinitis, I would then lie to them that they were for my rhinitis. I then had this idea together with my teacher, and communicated with my teacher. It got better. (IDI, 13 year-old boy) |
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| Caregivers' worries about children's reactions to disclosure |
| He blamed me. He blamed me for infecting him. His dad was gone then, he probably heard of it from his grandma. He heard that his dad contracted and infected his mum, and then mum infected him. Once when we came here to see the doctor, he also said that he blamed me for giving him the disease. Later I explained to him, and he understood. Please ask whether he still blames me for it. (IDI, mother of 13 year-old boy) |
| I am just worried that she cannot accept it. She has to be on medication for life. (IDI, mother of 13 year-old girl) |
| No, he did not ask. I'm worried that he might have some thoughts or attitudes towards his parents when he knows. I'll tell him when the time is right. (IDI, father of 12 year-old boy) |
| Just don't tell her everything at one time. I'm afraid that she can't handle it. (IDI, mother of 10 year-old girl) |
| Not yet. I think he is still too young. I'm afraid that he would carry it as a psychological burden. (IDI, father of 13 year-old boy) |
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| Caregivers' sense of lack of preparedness |
| No [we have never talked with her about her condition]. We don't know how to begin. We don't dare to tell her either. (IDI, mother of 10 year-old girl) |
| I can tell him when he is 15 or older. I don't know where to start, and I'm both worried and scared. (IDI, mother of 12 year-old boy) |
| I have the feeling that the biggest problem we have now is we don't know how to tell her. (IDI, mother of 10 year-old girl) |
| I'm not entirely sure [whether he knows his status), but we have never talked about this, and I'm not ready either. I don't plan to tell him now, and I thought about telling him in two or three years. (IDI, mother of 13 year-old boy) |
| I'm not well educated myself, so I'm not able to explain to him clearly. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old boy) |
| To be honest, I, for myself, also wish that this disease can be cured one day. With this wish in my mind, I don't know how to talk to him about this. (IDI, father of 13 year-old boy) |
| At this age, he could easily get into something bad without proper education. That's why I'm so concerned about how to tell him. (IDI, mother of 13 year-old boy) |
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| Ownership of disclosure: dialogue between caregivers and clinicians |
| I haven't told him about his condition … the doctor has told him some. I don't know how to tell him. You [clinicians] can say however much you want to. It's better if you tell him. (IDI, grandfather of 10 year-old boy) |
| I think it's better if you can tell her. You're professionals, and she may listen to you more. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old girl) |
| I think you will be more suitable, because he may not pay attention to what I say to him. He may ignore it or never take it seriously. He may listen to you more. (IDI, mother of 11 year-old boy) |
| There are not many people at home. His grandma is too old, and I'm the only one left, but I can't really explain it clearly. It would be best if you can help me with this. It would be rather easy for him to understand if the counselor could tell him a little every time when we are here. (IDI, mother of 14 year-old boy) |
| I haven't decided which way I'm going to use to tell them, but I think it would be better if they learn about it from their parents. It might be easier to take it if they are told by someone close to them. (IDI, mother of 11 year-old girl) |
| I think it would be better to let us tell him. He is quite good with us. (IDI, mother of 10 year-old boy) |
| It must be me. Who else could tell him that? (IDI, mother of 12 year-old boy) |
| I think it is the obligation of both parents and medical workers to tell the children. (FGD, clinician) |
| Some parents believe that they should tell their children when they are older, and some children were told by their counselors. Most of them before were told by counselors. (FGD, clinician) |
| We haven't developed any standard on exactly when is a good time to tell and how. This is also part of what we would like to explore in the future. It is rather difficult as, domestically, relevant people also don't have any good experience about when and how to tell. (FGD, clinician) |