| Literature DB >> 28069886 |
Sylwia Górska1, Kirsty Forsyth1, Donald Maciver1.
Abstract
Purpose of the Study: To identify and examine the published qualitative research evidence relative to the experience of living with dementia. Design andEntities:
Mesh:
Year: 2018 PMID: 28069886 PMCID: PMC5946830 DOI: 10.1093/geront/gnw195
Source DB: PubMed Journal: Gerontologist ISSN: 0016-9013
Inclusion/Exclusion Criteria
| Inclusion/exclusion criteria | |
|---|---|
| Inclusion | Population: samples where the majority of participants were community dwelling older adults (≥65) with a diagnosis of dementia. |
| Main focus: meaning/experience of dementia; both self-reported and proxy reports. | |
| Methodology: qualitative, interpretative studies. | |
| Language: English. | |
| Timeframes: January 1990 to September 2015. | |
| Exclusion | Population: other age groups (<65) and samples including people with diagnostic categories other than dementia (e.g., mild cognitive impairment, cancer); samples where the majority of participants were people living in residential care. |
| Main focus: | |
| Studies of the “illness experience” where dementia is included, but is not the main topic of the study and where other co-morbidities may strongly contribute to the experience under scrutiny. | |
| Studies which focus on a specific aspect of dementia experience out of the scope of this review (e.g., the meaning of living alone and temporality in dementia). | |
| Studies reporting experience of particular rehabilitative approaches by PWD or carers. | |
| Studies reporting evaluation of specific therapeutic approaches. | |
| Studies reporting carers’ own experience related to their caring role. | |
| Methodology: quantitative methodologies, opinion pieces, theoretical articles unless based on primary research. | |
| Language: studies published in a language other than English. | |
| Timeframes: literature published prior to 1990, unless cited as a key article on the topic. | |
| No abstract available for review. | |
Figure 1.Study selection flow chart.
Figure 2.Experience of living with dementia: transactional relationships between identified themes.
Quotations, Themes, and Concepts From Primary Studies and Their Relation to the Synthesized Themes
| Theme/subtheme | Data | |
|---|---|---|
| Living with change | ||
| Cognitive capacity | “I have read that you know as people get older the memory tends to fade a bit and like a lot of people, I can remember things from way past, but I have difficulty in remembering what I did yesterday, you see.” (Gillies, 2000) | |
| “I suddenly realize that she asked me to do something and I haven’t remembered to do either of the two things. That frustrates her a bit too, of course.” (Gilmour & Huntington, 2005) | ||
| “I have dementia and I’m going to reach a stage whereby I can no longer think as a logical person or do things in a logical way.” (Harman & Clare, 2006) | ||
| “Like leaves fall to the ground from a tree, old people lose their memories.” (Langdon et al., 2007) | ||
| “You tell them that my memory has gone, that’s a symbol for it, but it’s not just my memory that’s gone, it’s the comprehension that’s gone…” (Lawrence et al., 2011) | ||
| “I can look up somebody’s name, go to the phone book, once I’ve got the number, I’ve forgotten whose name I’m looking for.” (MacQuarrie, 2005) | ||
| “… [It] is a teasing disease. It teases you a lot. For example, you no longer recognise your childhood classmates. Your friends’ faces look strange. It’s like typhus—it breaks you down./…/It is very troublesome; it’s very bad.” (Mazaheri et al., 2013) | ||
| “I don’t have the ability to grasp and understand things the way I did years ago. I don’t remember. That’s my whole problem is my memory” (Phinney, 1998) | ||
| “What I find difficult though, is remembering uh, remembering things. Maybe peoples’ names, or what I did […]” (Phinney & Chesla, 2003) | ||
| “That’s what puzzles me sometimes…. I can go back to when I was about seven years old… But something that happened, like. Like when you’ve gone, if somebody rang me and said what have you been doing today, I might say I don’t know. I could have forgotten.” (Preston et al., 2007) | ||
| “Actually, I don’t think I really realized at the beginning that I had memory loss. I’d say, ‘I can’t think of it right now,’ if somebody asked me something, and I didn’t realize I had memory loss.” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | ||
| Emotions | “I think the whole class of problems that Alzheimer’s disease belongs to are the most frightening name you could find in the language, I think… dementia… Because when I was a youngster, the whole of society didn’t refer to that group of, ah, diseases by any particular name at all… and as they’re aware, it came from, you know, the adjective from that is demented and a demented person is a loony and a loony is somebody you put in… an asylum… Now I’ve got this strongly in my mind… that I am being told in the gentlest of ways that I may be suffering from early dementia in one form or another and I… I still can’t… disconnect… that word from the asylum…” (Gilmour & Huntington, 2005) | |
| “I was devastated, in shock, speechless. I could not believe that I could have AD… I was angry, depressed, felt suicidal, and hated the world. After experiencing this myriad of emotions, I calmed down and realised that there is still a world out there for me to participate in.” (Macrae, 2008) | ||
| “First senses are no. No way. I don’t have such a thing! You know? I mean this is how your first reaction is. I’m just tired. I’ve had a bad day. Or something that really upset me very much about the same time when I started. I mean it was just one of those things. No. I don’t. That’s not me. I didn’t! I don’t want that! You know as if you could just go up and brush it aside. Because anybody that knows the word, I think they know what it is, but you deny it!” (MacQuarrie, 2005) | ||
| “…like you are totally in a foreign land, and nothing is known to you. But at the same time you know you are supposed to know . . . like looking for something that just isn’t there. Empty, lonely, isolated. But you keep looking for something familiar, that you know is there, but you just can’t see it.” (Parsons-Suhl et al., 2008) | ||
| “I think maybe I could probably handle somebody telling me I had whatever, but when it’s your mind it’s just really devastating, because you think, oh, how long is it going to be until I’m going to be a burden? That’s one of the first things you think of…like, how long is it going to be before I’m a…I’m not able to look after myself and I have to have [my husband] doing everything for me.” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | ||
| Participation and performance | “Well, as my memory’s got worse and worse, erm… I’ve - I’ve become less and less involved in things going on.” (Caddell & Clare, 2011) | |
| “In my whole life I have been active in many choirs. Now, when I no longer remember the songs, I have decided to give up that activity . . . not funny to do things bad when you have been a “master”.” (Holst & Hallberg, 2003) | ||
| “Because before I used to do everything for myself, go out, go to help people and do different things you know, around. I did everything for myself. But now I can’t do anything, I always forgetting you see.” (Lawrence et al., 2011) | ||
| “I can’t get out and about for myself.” (Moyle et al., 2011) | ||
| “I cannot count you see. I choose not to count. […] when I’m knitting, I have to count and count and count and count to get it right. What has been there before has gone.” ( | ||
| “I quit teaching, basically, because I was having problems remembering and I didn’t keep up,… I didn’t keep up my, uh… it was just a matter of remembering names at the particular time” (Ostwald et al., 2002) | ||
| “I used to be able to talk to you, write orders out, and listen to someone else… but that, I’ve lost. That’s a definite loss… I’m not what I was 20 years ago. I can’t really, really (3 second pause) I really can’t do things that I would like to do. It’s just not there anymore.” (Phinney et al., 2013) | ||
| Sense of agency | “I feel more settled and okay in myself. That I’m still doing things and capable. To have still some independence in there. That I am still here, and I do have a say, and I’m not just a person with dementia and ignored, and that everybody else knows more than me. To still understand that there is a person there, and being aware of what stage I’m at, and what I can still input and allow that to happen.” (Fetherstonhaugh et al., 2013) | |
| “Because she wants to make things so easy for me, she got into all my records, you know, business records, because one of the people who… talked to us said we needed to have some of those things. But nobody asked me for them and I happened to be cleaning up something on the table and found some of these records that were important to me. And so I said, ‘Don’t, don’t take anything out until you ask me about it. Just leave them there because this is going to go on a long time and we’ll have plenty of time to do these.’ But, she, I don’t know, I got scared because I thought maybe she lost something.” (Ostwald et al., 2002) | ||
| Social connectedness | “I can’t manage it anymore so it’s okay. It’s a pity though that you lose contact with so many nice people.” (Holst & Hallberg, 2003) | |
| “I sometimes find it difficult to express myself, I cannot find the words, and therefore I avoid talking to others.” (Holst & Hallberg, 2003) | ||
| “I am bad… at talking properly… maybe it follows with the disease… before I used to talk and got it out what I wanted to say but… now it is irritating… it does not sound good what I am saying…” (Karlsson et al., 2014) | ||
| “… I avoid going to people, especially former friends, unless I go to places where everyone has Alzheimer’s.” (Lawrence et al., 2011) | ||
| “But I seem like I’m quite content to, if I stay at home, or stuff like that where I don’t have to think too fast, or not just fast, but correctly, if you know what I am saying” (Ostwald et al., 2002) | ||
| “Everybody is affected by it. And uh to me [pause] it barks sometimes because people answer me short. They don’t realize that some of the things I’m trying to say I can’t say right… they don’t realize that I am trying to say something serious… [pause] So that it makes it hard for the family. They are suffering like I am” (Phinney & Chesla, 2003) | ||
| “I do not have that many acquaintances anymore. Somehow, I sit here like a crow in her nest . . .” (Vikström et al., 2008) | ||
| Striving for continuity | ||
| Coping strategies | “I must be one of the victims; I’ve got a chance of being one of the contributors. I feel quite good about that.” (Clare, 2002) | |
| “I think the coming to terms with the matter is, um, well it has to happen… Still in the middle of that process, I think.” (Clare, 2002) | ||
| “Well, I just accept things as they are. I don’t see what else you can do.” (Gillies, 2000) | ||
| “. . . Appointments . . . I try to write everything down in my diary and look at it. If I remember to look at it.” (Gillies, 2000) | ||
| “If the wife’s there we get on alright. She understands that. She’s more or less my memory.” (Gillies, 2000) | ||
| “You can fight it or try to overcome it or step around it, but it’s there and it’s not as if you can say that ‘what a nuisance, I’ll push it aside and carry on […]. It is a different way of life. And you can roll with it or I suppose you could go and hibernate, uh, tuck yourself away, but yes, it does make a difference.” (Hulko, 2009) | ||
| “Eventually you just have to tell your friends, ‘Sorry, I’ve been having some memory problems lately” (MacQuarrie, 2005) | ||
| “For me, surviving is both attitude and action. It means that even while knowing that I have this disease, I can still go on with life always doing the best I can with what I have at any given point. This is the attitude of seeing life worth living.” (Macrae, 2008) | ||
| “I make everybody laugh . . . well, that’s the only thing left for us. We’ve already lost our memory . . . if you haven’t got a sense of humour, you’re dead.” (Menne et al., 2002) | ||
| “Although I am very forgetful now, I try to keep my usual routine, do exercise and read newspapers.” (Mok et al., 2007) | ||
| “There is not a great deal of problem because I would not attempt to do those types of jobs now” (Pearce et al., 2002) | ||
| “It’s just old age” (Phinney et al., 2002) | ||
| “[…] my husband does the cooking and I don’t like that part. Interviewer: You miss doing cooking? Yeah, I do. And I think, well sure I could do the cooking. And I think, well maybe I’ll do the vegetables. Yeah.” (Stieber-Roger, 2008) | ||
| “I think I am very fortunate. I have really managed to accept it and to say that I’m a lot luckier than a lot of other people. I could be a lot worse. […]” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | ||
| Participation | “Well… life is fine but… I know that I am annoying my wife a bit because… I’m like a child I suppose… I do not know what I shall occupy myself with… so now and then I get on the bike for a while so she can have some respite…” (Karlsson et al., 2014) | |
| “Through this period of AD, I have changed significantly. I understand people a lot more. I am more mellow than I have ever been… I really find lots of things to do and ways to help people. So this is me now… I am kinder, gentler, and… Until that time, I’m getting out and doing things, always!” (Macrae, 2008) | ||
| “She has said to me since she has moved here, ‘sometimes I get a bit lonely but there is always plenty to do’, I think her formula is if you feel a bit lonely then you had better get busy doing something.” (Female carer) (Moyle et al., 2011) | ||
| “Oh, missing out on a lot [laughs]. Right. I don’t like the idea of not doing, doing things and enjoying things. That’s the big [pause] And when I’m not, I don’t think I would want to live. Why exist if you don’t enjoy doing things?” (Phinney & Chesla, 2003) | ||
| “You gotta do something, especially if you’ve spent your whole life working with your hands, you couldn’t just walk away and leave it” (Phinney et al., 2013) | ||
| “I can’t complain, because I can still do some things… I can’t work anymore as I used to, but I still take care of my dinner and so forth. And I still help with the cleaning. Light chores, nothing too heavy. And my son does everything else” (Steeman et al., 2007) | ||
| “Being with people, I love being with people. I love being with organisations and I like to attend festivals and so on. To see it and to enjoy it. I have always been very active.” (Steeman et al., 2013) | ||
| “I still work for a firm in N. and now and then I still play a little bit the role of consultant, adviser. And as soon as J., that is how they call the big boss over there, will say that he no longer needs me, I’ll be in big distress. You know, being written off.” (Steeman et al., 2013) | ||
| “ […] I still can do my [lay ministry work], I still can see my kids, I can still do things that I like doing, and I think you have to sometimes just be grateful for what you have.” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | ||
| Sense of agency | “I feel like I’m part of the decision, even though I know probably now I’m not contributing a great deal, at least I feel as if I’m part of the decision. And that’s very, very important. So I feel enabled and empowered, even though each year goes by I’m less participating, at least I feel as if I am.” (Fetherstonhaugh et al., 2013) | |
| “I’m trying to control it. Trying to improve on things that I forget about” (Gillies, 2000) | ||
| “No one else can fix my future” (Karlsson et al., 2014) | ||
| “No! No! That irked, that irked me! Oh, I was furious! It wasn’t the idea of what they did. It was not to have talked to me too! You know like, say to me, we think this is the best for you, and we will look after you.” (MacQuarrie, 2005) | ||
| “As long as I can do something safely and do it properly, then I don’t want to have to depend on somebody else. Because you feel useless then and I don’t want to be useless.” (Menne et al., 2002) | ||
| Identity | “I’m still the same silly bugger.” (Caddell & Clare, 2011) | |
| “No, I don’t think so, I don’t think I’ll ever change.” (Caddell & Clare, 2011) | ||
| “I’m still the same person, I’m probably, I don’t mean to say less of a person, but I’m probably 90 percent of the person I was.” [What’s the 10 per cent that has changed?]. “Well, I’m not as handy as I was you know.’ (Macrae, 2008) | ||
| “…and when I go there, I go to be a woman. It’s the women’s group. It’s not like when I go to the memory club to be, um, well to be with other people with Alzheimer’s. Which is good for me as well. I go there as someone who has Alzheimer’s if you, um (pause). It’s the different bits of me at these places, um [pause]. It’s all me, but I’m being most conscious of the woman bit with the women and the Alzheimer’s bit at the club” (Preston et al., 2007) | ||
| “Maybe it’s important that, although you have a memory loss, you haven’t lost your mind completely, you know…. You’ve lost your memory but you haven’t lost your mind. And you’re still the same person, and you do make mistakes when you’re…when you repeat yourself, but you’re still knowledgeable, you’re still the same person, and I think it’s important that people realize that you don’t change. I mean, things…your life changes, of course, but you’re still the same person inside…at least I think I am. [laughs]” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | ||
| Double edged nature of the environment | ||
| Enabling | Disempowering | |
| Interpersonal relationships | “My daughters didn’t take over, and they didn’t just assume that ‘Mum can’t do this anymore’. They sort of, just wanted to see where I was comfortable in how much stuff I did want, and what I was capable of doing myself… They allowed me to still say, ‘Yes this is okay, and this is what I’m comfortable with and yes, I can still do this’ and it worked out really well.” (Fetherstonhaugh et al., 2013) | “Walks, yeah. I used to walk for miles, but me family don’t want us to go away far, you know, but -…Well the family really, they’re frightened, you know, but I’m not, I’m not...” (Brittain et al., 2010) |
| “When the guy [from the agency] came out he basically didn’t talk to me, he was talking to [my wife]. And I got quite upset, and I told him so. And he told me something like, well that’s what they do, and I said, ‘Well that doesn’t meet my needs’, and ‘I’m the customer’, and he said ‘No, she’s our customer’ and I really got quite angry.” (Fetherstonhaugh et al., 2013) | ||
| “Well, from my perspective, I would want to be not just a number or a name on a piece of paper. I’m a person. And, as such, you’re dealing with me as a one-to-one person. I’d want to be dealt with by the health professionals that way.” (Gilmour & Huntington, 2005)“It helped because he was the only person who seemed to tell me the truth, that was what I wanted.” (Harman & Clare, 2006)“…there is a great solidarity here in the village… there is never anyone who are foes… everyone is so kind… I find a great consolation in having these people around me…” (Karlsson et al., 2014)“I think I would rather they talked to me as though I was normal and just pick me up when I’m wrong if you like to put it that way, without being too unkind about it […] I might feel a bit silly but none the more for that, it… it would be better to be told I think” (Langdon et al., 2007)“My friends have mostly gone out of their way [to be supportive]. We’ve very good friends” (Macrae, 2008)“The most important thing I like is for my family to support me, love me, and not force me to do things I do not want to do.” (Mok et al., 2007)“The feeling of forgetfulness is a very difficult to take. My children never scold me; rather they comfort me and teach me how to do things, and my son is very patient and good-tempered. He understands that I am afraid and scared. It is the feeling of guilt that makes me feel uncomfortable. It is like forgetting to do my homework and, in the end, the teacher does not punish me. I do not want to disclose my feelings to my children because I am afraid they would not ask me to do anything anymore. Furthermore, I do not want them to worry about me. I am afraid they will find me useless.” (Mok et al., 2007)“If you know that at 10 or 11 I can go to the store and buy a newspaper, then that’s something to look forward to and then I meet a bunch of people, I’m friends with almost everyone at the store and I think that’s… and I hear many people say they’ve met me at the store and exchanged thoughts. They appreciated it and I do too” (Olsson et al., 2013) | ||
| “People tend to talk about them behind your back rather than to your face.” (Harman & Clare, 2006) | ||
| “They thought that I was drunk. It is awful to be treated that way when it in fact is other things you need help with.” (Holst & Hallberg, 2003) | ||
| “Nowadays you see everybody puts me down including Jim [live-in-carer], puts me down as a loser you see and I wish to discuss something but if they come it always gets foolish idiot, they will turn around and say ‘oh well, it’s no good discussing it with him because he wouldn’t know the first thing about it.” (Langdon et al., 2007) | ||
| “I haven’t told anyone. I think they will treat me differently. I wouldn’t be upset though, it depends what they know. If they have heard about it and don’t understand they would treat me differently. They think it’s something bad–they would scorn you and not want to come near you and fully believe that you are like that.” (Langdon et al., 2007) | ||
| “I don’t need anybody to do my work [My daughter] will do things for me but I can still (pause) And she gives me a row when I start to do windows She says, ‘Mother, stop doing that!’ I think she thinks (pause) because (pause) I’m old” (Robertson 2014) | ||
| “Not as many people come around anymore” (Macrae, 2008) | ||
| “I say to them [her daughters], ‘Let me help wash the curtains and put them up again’. They say ‘No, no. It is better you stand and watch. We’ll do the entire job ourselves’. I don’t know what to do during the day” (Mazaheri et al., 2013) | ||
| “I like playing mah-jong and going out, but no longer can I do it now because no one will take me out.” (Mok et al., 2007) | ||
| “She’s (wife) very supportive, yes, er, I won’t say dependent, but essential” (Preston et al., 2007)“…there’s people that are about in the same stages as I am, and I think that’s important…. And we talk back and forth about things we do and things we do wrong and stuff, and I think that helps a lot. It doesn’t make you feel so isolated.” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | “My life is lonely…very lonely. My daughter doesn’t come to see me; none of my children come to see me. Sometimes I would like to talk to one or other of them.” (Moyle et al., 2011) | |
| “It doesn’t bother me anymore, but it did at first… I had the concept that, well, “he’s not all there,” and [I was] very seldom asked for an opinion or anything of that nature.” (Werezak & Stewart, 2009) | ||
| Physical environment | “I just don’t go very far really, I keep to where I live you know….Where I know I’ll see people I know….I feel comfortable in [town]... I just don’t go very far really, I keep to where I live you know. I can come into [town] mind because me son lives in [town], well I just head for his house you know.....I think you know yourself how, where to go and who you know, where to visit and things like that” (Brittain et al., 2010) | “Oh Lord I hope I don’t have it [Alzheimer’s disease] . . . because when you have it, it is terrible. I knew somebody who had it and then they put her in a home and that made her worse.” (Lawrence et al., 2011) |
| “I’d feel like a prisoner if I wasn’t able to go out… it would be horrible, it would be terrible, I don’t want to be trapped inside, never.” (Olsson et al., 2013) | ||
| “I do stupid things at times. I did one the other day. I just wasn’t’ thinking. I was heading for one place and ended up in another. If I’m out someplace, there have been some times when I’ve been concerned about how to get back to the house” (Phinney, 1998) | ||
| “Our family, a lot of people say to us, ‘Oh, what are you doing in this great big house?’ I’ve probably said this to you before, but we love this house. We love this position, and we can cope with it, as long as [husband’s name] can still mow the lawn.” (Gilmour & Huntington, 2005) | ||
| “Well, I just won’t get up and go someplace. I give it thought, and I might write on a piece of paper where I came from or what streets to take to get back again. I’ve done that once or twice, but uh, because I, with all those avenues and everything I could get lost in a hurry. I wouldn’t know to go left or right or whatever.” (Phinney & Chesla, 2003) | ||
| “As long as I can be outside and do things I’ll have an identity” (Olsson et al., 2013) | ||
| “It (being outdoors) reminds me that there is still a lot of life left to be lived.” (Olsson et al., 2013) | ||
| Sociocultural environment | Marginalisation and instrumental preoccupations: “I remember what I want to remember. I don’t forget to pay my rent, to pay the hydro, etc. I eat, I sleep. Listen, dear, I’m 75 years old. Life’s not the same when you’re older.” (Hulko, 2009) | Privilege and socio-emotional preoccupations: “I’m concerned about [my wife] um having the same feeling, you know is this going to be steep or shallow or what is it going to be and how is it going to affect both of us and what, what’s, what um can we do or you know, you really feel that you’ve got no attack, from our point of view to prevent what’s going to happen.” (Hulko, 2009) |
| “Good doctors don’t knock you down with big words [like dementia] which could frighten a lot of people to death couldn’t it?” (Langdon et al., 2007) | ||
| “I think the whole class of problems that Alzheimer’s disease belongs to are the most frightening name you could find in the language, I think… dementia… Because when I was a youngster, the whole of society didn’t refer to that group of, ah, diseases by any particular name at all… and as they’re aware, it came from, you know, the adjective from that is demented and a demented person is a loony and a loony is somebody you put in… an asylum… | ||
| Now I’ve got this strongly in my mind… that I am being told in the gentlest of ways that I may be suffering from early dementia in one form or another and I… I still can’t… disconnect… that word from the asylum…” (Gilmour & Huntington, 2005) | ||
| “I don’t like the word [dementia] because it means mindlessness” (Langdon et al., 2007) | ||
| “Horrible sounding name anyhow, Alzheimer’s disease you know, it can make you sound as if you’re very gnarled— something about the word disease, I think it’s a very bad choice of name for it” (Langdon et al., 2007) | ||