The experience of being 30-45 years of age and depending on haemodialysis treatment: a phenomenological study.

The aim of this study was to describe how haemodialysis (HD) patients, between 30 and 45 years of age, experience their dependence on HD treatment. Nine patients undergoing HD treatment were interviewed. The transcribed texts were analysed according to Giorgi's four basic principles. Being between 30 and 45 years of age and needing HD treatment meant experiencing a total lack of freedom, which was illuminated through the sub-themes: a sense of fear, dependency on caregivers, time lost in dialysis, feelings of loneliness and the stress of being on the waiting list for a new kidney. The participants felt that being dependent on HD treatment was 'not a real life' and that they were experiencing a double life of sorts: the life of dialysis versus their ordinary life outside treatment. The dependency on HD treatment was also expressed as a feeling that life 'stood still.' The results also indicate that the participants expected to encounter competent healthcare professionals, and they emphasised the importance of providing support for younger HD patients by focusing on their ability to cope with their life situation.