Breast or bottle? Eating disordered childbearing women and infant-feeding decisions.

Debates about infant-feeding methods have intensified in recent years with increasing pressures on women living in industrialized nations to breastfeed their infants. This paper, based on a qualitative study of 16 childbearing women with a pre-existing eating disorder living in the north of England, examines participants' motivations for, and understandings of, infant-feeding decisions and practices. In this study, a small number of participants reported being 'desperate' to formula feed in order to resume practices underpinning their eating disorder and thereby to shed the weight accumulated during pregnancy. These participants anticipated an early return to restrictive eating, heavy exercise regimes and/or bingeing/purging behaviours. Most participants, however, reported being 'desperate' to breastfeed because this implied 'good' mothering and prolonged the time during which they could consume 'naughty' treats. Women who opted to breastfeed generally believed this would accelerate weight loss. This study contributes to research on the subjective experiences of a particular group of women living with chronic illnesses and problematic relationships with their bodies. Negotiating individual transitions to motherhood required participants to confront their own, often longstanding, disrupted eating patterns and to make important decisions about infant-feeding methods. Findings from this study raise questions about some of the assumptions underpinning infant-feeding activities and articulate some of the complexities surrounding these issues. By highlighting ways in which women may compromise their own well-being by prioritizing their baby's needs, for example by persisting with breastfeeding when they were 'desperate' to re-engage with their disordered eating practices, an individualized cost-benefit framing is outlined.