| Literature DB >> 35413611 |
Yayi Suryo Prabandari1, Wika Hartanti2, Mentari Widiastuti3, Riani Witaningrum4, Susanna Hilda Hutajulu5, Matthew John Allsop6.
Abstract
INTRODUCTION: Limited research exists exploring the experience of living with advanced breast cancer in Indonesia. We sought to explore the narratives of women with breast cancer across the illness trajectory to understand their experiences from diagnosis to accessing and undergoing cancer treatments to inform the development of cancer care.Entities:
Keywords: Breast cancer; Chemotherapy; Illness trajectory; Indonesia; Qualitative
Mesh:
Year: 2022 PMID: 35413611 PMCID: PMC9010781 DOI: 10.1016/j.breast.2022.04.001
Source DB: PubMed Journal: Breast ISSN: 0960-9776 Impact factor: 4.254
Fig. 1Overview of steps taken during thematic analysis.
Characteristics of participants.
| Participant informants (total n = 20) | n | % | |
|---|---|---|---|
| Age | 40–49 | 10 | 50 |
| 50–59 | 6 | 30 | |
| 60–69 | 4 | 20 | |
| Highest level of education | Primary/junior high school | 14 | 70 |
| Senior high school/university | 6 | 30 | |
| Marital status | Single | 1 | 5 |
| Widowed | 1 | 5 | |
| Married | 18 | 90 | |
| Number of children | 0 | 1 | 5 |
| 1 | 3 | 15 | |
| 2 | 12 | 60 | |
| 3 or more | 4 | 20 | |
| Status of employment | Housewife | 10 | 50 |
| Employed/self-employed outside the home | 9 | 45 | |
| No job | 1 | 5 | |
| Time since diagnosis (per 2019) | 0 year | 6 | 30 |
| 1 year | 12 | 60 | |
| 2 years | 0 | 0 | |
| 3 years | 2 | 10 | |
| Metastasis status | Oligo metastasis | 15 | 75 |
| Multiple metastases | 5 | 25 | |
| Stage at initial diagnosis | Stage III (locally advanced) | 3 | 15 |
| Stage IV (metastatic disease) | 17 | 85 | |
Illustrative quotes for the themes and sub-themes.
| Sub Themes | Illustrative quote | |
|---|---|---|
| 1 | “When I found the lump, I did not do anything. I thought it was not that serious. I did not feel pain. Even when I perform daily activities, I do not feel pain or fatigue, no.” (Participant 13, 56 years old) | |
| 2 | “(initially) I wasn't too concerned about the disease, as I've consulted with the herbalist, and asked if the disease could be managed in the herbal clinic and whether we needed to get treated at the hospital. (The herbalist said) ‘with God's will, we can treat the disease here, no need to go to the hospital.’ So, I (felt assured and) had no concern. (Participant 10, 46 years old)” | |
| 3 | “I ignored it for about 2 years. Then the lump got bigger and bigger to the point that I started feeling pain. The pain spread to this and this part. I was terrified, (only) then I went to Hospital B.” (Participant 15, 54 years old) | |
| 4 | “… I don't feel it, ma'am … then … here … my heart is like being squeezed, you know … it feels congested … I think it's because of my stomach acid … The first time I knew that … kept going to the district hospital once, twice, three times … but still didn't get better. Then I asked for a referral to a provisional general hospital. Then you know … I was on the X-ray … it turned out that my lungs were full of fluid … the doctor said the fluid was coming out of my breast … which … had hit the motorcycle handlebar in the past”. (Participant 18, 47 years old) | |
| 5 | “I took alternative medicine … there was no improvement, Ma'am. The practitioner guaranteed this, this, this, but there was no improvement. One of them sold the medicine for one million [rupiah] per package … but it's pricey.” (Participant 08, 56 years old) | |
| 6 | “I was asked to do surgery, but I said, I don't want to, I was afraid. I just ignored it and kept taking herbal medicine for 3 years” (Participant 03, 64 years old) | |
| 7 | “(At that time) my children were still very young and at school age. I thought children's school had to be prioritized more, and maybe I could deal with my conditions later (after they finished school)”. (Participant 10, 46 years old) | |
| 8 | “(I thought) it was only a lump, not a big deal. But after two months my blood pressure was low, so my daughter told me to just go to the hospital, get medical consultation and examination, and if the doctor said to get breast surgery, she told me I had to comply. I agree and follow her (lead), as what's important is that I can be healed”. (Participant 12, 56 years old) | |
| 9 | “My children always encourage me to undergo treatment, although I said I felt better, I should not go, I make my children so busy to take care of me …. for example, I felt pain on my shoulder, then my children ask me to go to the hospital because they worry that the pain was related to my breast” (Participant 07, 58 years old) | |
| 10 | “In the past, my face was very pale. When I met my neighbour, she was worried about my health. At that time, I said, I was just a little dizzy, had a headache and had a fever. After that my neighbour visited me and persuaded me to go to the Puskesmas [Primary Health Care] for treatment. I was not mentally ready for treatment, I was afraid. Next time, the Puskesmas staff visited me and explained various things. Thus, I agreed to go to the Puskesmas“. (Participant 10, 43 years old) | |
| 11 | “… When I felt pain, I told my husband to take me to Puskesmas that night. Then he took me to Puskesmas and I got referred to a district-level hospital. Then, I got referred to a provincial-level hospital.” (Participant 02, 53 years old) | |
| 12 | “The physician at Puskesmas said, ‘Ma'am, you have to … you need to go to the hospital. I will make a referral. Where do you want to be referred to?’ The doctor asked me to choose between several hospitals in Jogja. I chose one hospital (Hospital P). But the doctor (internist) at Hospital P said the lump needed to be removed with surgery. It cannot be treated with medication alone. Medication will not be suitable. Just undergo surgery as soon as possible (the internist referred the participant to a surgeon)” (Participant 03, 64 years old) | |
| 13 | “I had experienced bad physical conditions during my trips to the hospital. My haemoglobin level was only 5,8. During the trip, I vomited blood … I came from Klaten [a neighbouring city about 45 min from Yogyakarta] which is quite far. (Participant 06, 41 years old) | |
| 14 | “The transport [travel to the hospital] was far. It costs three hundred thousand rupiahs [equivalent to 30 US dollars] for one trip, and six hundred thousand rupiahs [equivalent to 60 US dollars] for round-trips … for every treatment visit, I had to stay here for 2–3 days, and initially, I spent two hundred thousand rupiahs [approximately 20 US dollars] per night [for the accommodation]. Luckily I had a nephew here who now provided me with room to stay for free with every hospital visit.” (Participant 07, 58 years old) | |
| 15 | “My husband was so supportive of my treatment that he had to leave his job. He used to work at the airport, but because of taking care of me, he quit his job and is now working non-permanent jobs … as he'd need to accompany my visit to the hospital 2–3 times a week, for chemotherapy, routine check-ups, and picking up the medication.” (Participants 10, 46 years old) | |
| 16 | “Before the current doctor, we had encountered a doctor who said harsh things to us. That doctor said this disease couldn't be cured anymore, it was already at stage 4, the terminal stage, incurable, and told us to just go home. Sometimes we encountered doctors who were unfriendly, this doctor even said bad discouraging words to a patient who was severely ill.” (Participant 01, 61 years old) | |
| 17 | “Previously, I was referred to XX Hospital. The service was not good. One doctor served several patients. I am an impatient person. Imagine, at that time, I had just finished surgery, then I had to travel to XX Hospital at 3 a.m. by car with my weak condition. When I got there and met the doctor, I was only given painkillers and got the wound bandage changed. If it was only for changing the bandage, I could do it myself at home. I said to the doctor that I was going to this hospital for chemotherapy. But the doctor scolded me and said “Enough! I don't need your argument”. At that time, fortunately, I got advice from another doctor to change the referral to this current hospital “. (Participant 18, 47 years old) | |
| 18 | “After chemo, I felt nauseous, I didn't want to eat, then my nails turned black and my skin was scaly like fish skin.” (Participant 09, 63 years old) | |
| 19 | “After the first chemo, I felt major pain, that I couldn't walk normally like I used to prior to chemo, (after the first chemo) I had to walk very slowly and carefully. The doctor even prescribed me that orange morphine.” (Participant 05, 55 years old) | |
| 20 | “When I first went to Sardjito Hospital, I cried when I looked at the patients here. It was terrifying. Some patients' skin seems to have darkened, and I cried. ‘Oh, do I have to die so soon? I am not ready to leave my grandchildren.’ For a month I kept crying. Well, Ma'am, it's stressful … to be diagnosed with cancer. ‘Oh Allah, will I be able to go to the mosque during the fasting month next year?’ At the time, I cried so hard until everyone in the mosque came to me. They tried to comfort me, ‘Ma'am, you need to keep believing that you will recover.’ Will I be here during the fasting month next year? It's so scary. Oh God, please extend my lifespan. I am not ready to die. I am full of sin. And I still want to take care of my grandchildren.” (Participant 05, 55 years old) | |
| 21 | “I was desperate during the second chemo. I didn't think I could continue. I felt tortured, thought I'd rather die than suffer like that. (I didn't expect) the cure to my illness would feel torturous.” (Participant 03, 64 years old) | |
| 22 | “Now, I no longer think about how long I live. I just want to do the things that make me happy. I sing, I listen to Wayang (traditional java performance) in order to sleep well”. (Participant 05, 55 years old) | |
| 23 | “I just want to be healed, that's it. Every night I read zikr [Islamic utterance/prayer] in order to ask Allah for recovery. Allah does not test humans beyond our ability, Mam. I believe it.” (Participant 06, 41 years old) | |
| 24 | “I got a massage after having surgery. I also used special oil from Surabaya. It felt hot when I used it. The oil is clear like eucalyptus oil. My husband's friend used the oil and her breast’ wound dried up quickly. I observed mine is getting smaller” (Participant 08, 56 years old) | |
| 25 | “I did the whole treatment process patiently. Sometimes, I feel sorry for my children who accompany me for treatment. I often say I want to quit the treatment so they won't be troubled. But my children encouraged me to continue treatment”. (Participant 09, 63 years old) | |
| 26 | “I am a housewife. My living expenses including meals are fully provided by my children. They cover medical expenses that are not covered by BPJS. Alhamdulillah, they are very caring, taking care of me wholeheartedly” (Participant 05, 55 years old) | |
| 27 | “I felt like complaining to God, and sort of asking God to end this (life) once and for all, because I pity my kids for going through troubles taking care of me. Alas. my sickness, becomes my family's burden. (In terms of) many aspects like financial, efforts, and time. But my children insisted that I needed to stay strong, have more patience. (Children said) this is just how it's supposed to be, like I used to take care of them as children, and now it's their turn to take care of me their mother. Those kids collectively motivated, supported and entertained me.” (Participant 03, 65 years old) | |
| 28 | “The doctor (here in this hospital) asked about my health condition, listened to my complaints, then the doctor explained the chemo schedule” (Participant 01, 61 years old). | |
| 29 | “Thank God, the service at this hospital is very good. I have been admitted and hospitalised here many times, so I know the nurses well. They are friendly and playful”. (Participant 04, 50 years old) | |
| 30 | “My nephew introduced me to Sedekah Rombongan (community-based charity foundation). It provided me with free lodging, and volunteers who took me to and from the hospital. It's already been a year and more that I've been assisted by SR. During the early treatment, it was very difficult, I couldn't commute, so I stayed at the SR lodging, free of charge. I didn't have the money to commute.” (Participant 04, 50 years old) | |
| 31 | “My religious (Quran recital) group of friends send encouragement and motivations. I am no longer able to join their group activities, because I'm focusing on my treatments, but they often visit me and pray for me.” (Participant 09, 63 years old) | |
| 32 | “I am in good condition after chemo. Although I feel weak after chemo, my appetite is getting better. My friends said, my body is not as thin as before. I also feel that my face skin gets brighter and my nails are no longer black”. (Participant 03, 64 years old) | |
| 33 | “… I feel better after chemo. Before, I had to change wound bandages twice a day due to a lot of pus, now it's once a day and this pus fluid has reduced. Before I had a lot of breast pain, discomfort in various positions, and sleep disturbance. After the second chemo cycle, the pain diminished, and I could sleep better.” (Participant 05, 55 years old). | |
| 34 | “After several rays and chemo, I feel better and healthier and able to walk [at the beginning of the treatment I was still using a wheelchair]. Thank God (I feel) a lot of improvement. I was unable to walk, now I walk fine. I felt pain then, now no more pain. I feel a lot healthier, unlike the past times when many things hurt, but now I can even ride my motorcycle by myself. In the past, I couldn't even get up from bed nor eat without help.” (Participant 13, 56 years old) | |
| 35 | “Even now, sometimes I take care of it myself, the hospital staff explains how to treat the wound myself. I bought wound treatment at the pharmacy. Morning and evening, I change the bandage and put on the underpad. Now the wound is getting smaller” (Participant 10, 46 years old). | |
| 36 | “I used to be very afraid to go to the hospital because I heard bad experiences from my neighbours and my friends. However, after I went through [chemotherapy] it turned out to be easy. After being referred here [Sardjito Hospital] my illness was immediately treated. There are many doctors here who are ready to help, medicines are also available. If I cannot see a certain doctor, there are other medical officers who may substitute. Now I am no longer afraid. I am happy, I want to be treated quickly because I want to get well soon. The important thing is to keep up the spirit and not think negatively. After knowing this disease, I went through all the doctor's advice. I'm not discouraged” (Participant 10, 46 years old). | |
| 37 | “So, I just want to follow (doctor's suggestion) because I really want to be healed … (doctor said) it's important to get immediate treatment … (if I have to) get chemo then so be it … as long as I can get help (for my disease)” (Participant 18, 47 years old) | |
| 38 | “… I said this to the doctor ‘I am afraid of this disease [cancer]. So, doctor … if there is anything related to my illness, please just communicate it to my child … ‘. ‘Oh, alright’, said the doctor.” (Participant 16, 64 years old). | |
| 39 | “Well … I just surrendered … because Allah gave me the disease. So … I am ready for what will happen … the important thing is I pray. I am not afraid … nor sad … just surrender … to Allah. I will follow whatever the doctor decides to do … the important thing is that I am cured” (Participant 19, 47 years old). | |
Fig. 2Thematic network schematic to represent key findings from the analysis.