| Dealing with patients suffering and dying• Guilt related to seeing patients dying or suffering alone.• Guilt related to not being able to be on the frontline• The sheer magnitude of the negative consequences due to COVID-19 | n = 46n = 35n = 30n = 15 | Witnessing people dying alone without family.“…the idea of human dignity just thrown out the window,”Older/vulnerable nurses expressing guilt for prioritizing their health“Never seen anything like corona”“This is the new norm” |
| Exhaustion• Difficult trying to gain a sense of “self”/balance•Completely physically and emotionally consumed with COVID-19 | n = 30n = 17n = 13 | Feelings of burnout: "my whole life has become the job, I barely see the sun and I have no routine."Feelings of being extra removed from natural environments, limiting the amount of time outside of the apartment to ensure safety |
| Disconnection from the world• Difficulties with “2D” or virtual learning•Mourning physical/face-to-face human connection and fellow students | n = 33n = 19n = 16 | "I still feel like a student, hard to differentiate between school and work;” Missing out on milestones like graduation ceremony.Worried about their education (as students) and their future.Advantages of telemedicine however lack of in-person connection. |
| Anxiety/Fear/Helplessness• Triggering of prior negative experiences• Concern for COVID-19 exposure for self, family members, and colleagues. Vulnerability to infection for self and loved ones.• “Checking COVID-19 statistics/news constantly”• Concern/helplessness over patients’ fears• Unknown situation | n = 46n = 10n = 35n = 12n = 17n = 18 | Triggers of experiences with other pandemics, 9/11, natural disasters.“A lot of people who died in the 9/11 died due to lack of personal protective equipment and we are now in the same boat""I feel like I have more control over the situation if I understand every part of it"With masks, patients can't see the nurses’ smiles and expressions of reassurance. "nurses are always trying to say to patient ‘I'm there with you’ however lack of touching makes that difficult”How long will this go on for and will it get worse? |
| Frustration with COVID-19 preparation and response• Lack of pandemic training/ direction/ protocol• Lack of PPE• Frustration with public not taking public health precautions seriously•Inadequate skills (particularly for students). Example: Not carrying weight at new unit as it is unfamiliar• Redeployment | n = 40n = 22n = 23n = 18n = 16n = 10 | Fear of a second wave and unpreparedness.Assignment to units where nurses have not worked before; Missing area of care they are used to providing |
| Coping Mechanisms and Mental Health• Coping strategies are unique for everyone• Validation of participants’ feelings via support circle and other means | n = 54n = 30n = 31 | Mental health of colleagues and peer-students; Passing of nursing and medical colleagues."All I want to do is sleep and be prepared for my next shift, I feel selfish in some ways in order to take care of myself"Emphasis on the importance of self-care and self-compassion."Support circle allows feelings to surface" |
| Silver lining•Hopefully this pandemic will address the weaknesses in our health care system in the future• Nurses are finding a purpose in the pandemic, opportunity to help• Moments of hope•Students are better prepared, gained valuable experiences | n = 36n = 15n = 12n = 15n = 19 | "Nothing will ever be the same, we have to think about how to prepare for the unknown, how to manage people's expectations of what we can do”"COVID has exposed the flaws in the hospital system so hopefully, this triggers positive change in the future"Ways teams mark victories, like sending a patient home and playing music for their discharge."We were supposed to have [clinical] integration right now so it's been nice to have other nurses on the floor ask for us to help out - feels like I'm using my brain" |
| The thread that holds nurses together• “We're all in this together” / humanity• Nurses have been leaning on and supporting each other• Commitment to the nursing field | n = 31n = 11n = 23n = 19 | “Very humbling to experience nurses on the floor."truly learned the model of a nurse""…the art of nursing, like comforting is more pertinent right now as the science portion of nursing is handicapped right now;""We are patient advocates right now especially because the patient's family can't be advocates" |