| Moral-Constraint DistressaOne is feeling distressed because they are constrained from doing what they think is the ethically appropriate actionN = 21 | I will never forget telling a mama that her child would die, while the child's dad looked helplessly on via facetime, because he had not been allowed on campus due to new Covid-19 restrictions. It was heartbreaking. |
| Caring for dying children right now is much more difficult and sad. … Trying to balance which patients to check on from home and which need to be seen in person has led to a great deal of conflict within the team. That conflict and difficulty will stay with me for a long time. |
| Have a mother crying and very upset about her dying infant and not being able to hug her. It will stick with me. I hated it. |
| I had a child abuse case, likely due to stress of COVID-19, that ended in redirection of care. It was a terrible case, and to top it off we couldn't get Mom the additional support she needed during EoL care for her daughter. Also had a re-direction of care where grandfather facetimed from the lobby to say goodbye because he was not allowed to come to the room. |
| I've learned how important touch is…especially during difficult conversations and at the end of life. |
| Moral-Observer DistressObserving (potentially) traumatic events but institutional or public health constraints make it impossible for a different action to be takenN = 18 | Some families have held drive by funerals for teenagers and stood in their yards while the teens drove by to send love. Heart breaking to imagine. |
| A young mother facing removal of LST (extubation) of her toddler with only one other family member able to visit with her and their priest performing a ritual from the hospital parking lot. |
| The despair of families who knew their child was approaching the end of their life and not be able to be all together as a family until the child was actively dying. |
| The trauma inflicted upon siblings that were not able to visit their sibling as they died. |
| How awful awful awful it is when a family is not whole, when only one parent can be with a child, how staggering the suffering is for all family members. |
| Moral-Uncertainty DistressaOne is feeling distressed because they are uncertain about whether they are doing the right thingN = 6 | I don't know if it's the larger grief and stress we are all facing, or the lack of my team members with me, or if people are making different choices than usual and deaths are clustering, or what the root of it is. |
| Decisions about furlough, salaries, hiring freezes will impact teams for years and are not easy ones to make. Even those, like myself who are experienced leaders find the uncertainty overwhelming at times. |
| Big increase in personal anxiety — fear of going to people's homes, apartment buildings, etc. and worrying about bringing infection home to loved ones or other patients. |