| Case 10 (18-year-old): “I was a member of a motorcycle gang, and I was invited to join the gang by a member of a right-wing organization. I did enjo-kosai. I was crazy in those days. The first time I had sex it was with a stranger. I tried marijuana, tempted by a man I met on a dating site. I do self-harm without noticing it. I sometimes think that I want to die and that it’s better if I don’t stay alive. I think the purpose of having sex is just to have a baby. Now I work at a bar. I want to work. My dream is to be rich.” |
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| Case 11 (16-year-old): “I live with my friend, as my mother knows. I have never participated in a motorcycle gang. I was tempted to use drugs by the members, but I said to them, ‘You’re fools!’ and rejected it. I had sex for the first time in the second grade of junior high school. As soon as I graduated from junior high school, I became pregnant and had an abortion before I entered vocational school. My boyfriend I lived with at that time kicked me in the stomach. He didn’t try to talk about it. We broke up. I don’t want to remember it, although I must never forget. Now I try to make my partner use a condom. I want to have sex, but I usually pretend to have sex reluctantly because boyfriend wants. I did enjo-kosai just once. I usually get money from a 35-year-old guest at my Cabaret Club these days. The first thing I want to do now is work. I have nothing but night work. My dream is to get married and have a child. I want to be happy.” |
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| Case 12 (17-year-old): “I left commercial high school in the first grade because I didn’t like studying. I disliked my teachers. I always think I shouldn't have been born. I have thought of killing myself. Everything looks tiresome. I experienced enjo-kosai by a dating site with a lot of men, but I made them use condoms. The first thing I want to do now is to die. My dream is to be supported by a partner right away.” |
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| Case 13 (16-year-old): “I tried thinner and stimulant out of curiosity, as recommended by my older friends. That was my mistake. I did enjo-kosai. I had sex for the first time with my boyfriend when I was in the beginning of the first grade in junior high school. He was four or five years older than me. I had an abortion two years ago. I sometimes think I shouldn’t stay alive. My family is poor. The first thing I want to do now is to get money. I have no dreams.” |
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| Case 14 (18-year-old): “Since I was a high school student, I have been doing enjo-kosai with men in their thirties to fifties. They give me 30 000 Yen each time. I hate it, I don’t want to do it, but I do it to get money. I was raped by a man whom I knew …in front of others. I was drunk. It was the winter of my second grade in junior high school. I have used drugs: marijuana, cocaine, stimulant, LSD, and thinner. I was tempted by my older friends. I obtained stimulant for 10 000 Yen per gram from drug peddlers. I felt pleasure while using it in the nightclub. I have done shoplifting many times. I was a member of a ladies’ motorcycle gang. I have cut my wrist. I sometimes use violence against others when I don’t like them. It’s fun to watch them bleed when I beat them up. I have never thought of suicide. After enjoying myself in the Host Club, I usually feel empty. I spend 400 000 Yen per month. I want money. It’s my pleasure to spend money. The Host Club is everything in my life. My dream is to get married to my sweetheart.” |
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| Case 15 (16-year-old): “My mother went away when I was in the second grade of elementary school. But now I can sometimes see her behind the back of my father. My father is tender. I love Dad. I was raped at a love hotel by a 23-year-old man whom I met on a mobile game site. I did enjo-kosai. I was compelled to do it because I had to save money. The buyers were 35- or 40-year-old men. I never want to do it again. I have suffered from chlamydia infection. I often sniff glue. I’m not going to stop using thinner. If someone I loved told me not to use it, I would stop it. It’s fun. I get it from my older friends, earning money by enjo-kosai. My parents tell me, ‘You can sniff if you want to do. But you’ll be sorry for it.’ I want to sniff thinner. I eat until I vomit. I cut my wrist. I carved ‘Death’ on my left wrist when my boyfriend said to me, ‘Drop dead!’ I intended to commit suicide and actually attempted it, but my friend stopped me and my boyfriend came to help. I don’t like to be left alone. My teachers didn’t desert me in my schooldays. All my friends are nice people. My dream is to work in a field related to cooking or to help in my grandmother’s work.” |
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| Case 16 (18-year-old): “My parents sometimes do violence to me, for example, they kick me, but I kick them in return. I did enjo-kosai with a 25-year-old office worker. I was about to be raped in the fourth grade in elementary school by a strange man who forced me into a car. I want to have sex. My first sex was in the second grade in junior high school with my boyfriend whom I loved. I feel empty periodically. I want to have cosmetic surgery on my eyelids. My dream is to be rich and marry a wealthy man.” |
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| Case 17 (18-year-old): “I get along with my mother. In my childhood, I took lessons in piano and swimming. I stayed in the same grade in high school because I didn’t go to school regularly. At that time, my schoolmates made fun of me, but now it’s OK and school is fun. I have a best friend in my school. An acquaintance of another friend gave me stimulant last year. It was supposed to cost 10 000 Yen, but I could get it for nothing in a casino. I broke down just once. Because I was scared of using stimulant and my friend always tenderly stood by me, I could stop it. I don’t need stimulant now. But I still use marijuana with several people once a month in a karaoke box. A person involved with yakuza gave it to us for nothing, but I broke with him. I use marijuana out of curiosity. My first sex was when I was 16 years old with a 25-year-old man who picked up me in a nightclub. I had sex for 50 000 Yen with a man about 50 years old whom I met in a dating café. He made me sick. I made him use a condom as I learned in school. I don’t like to have sex because it makes me tired, even with my boyfriend. I have never gone out with any boyfriend for more than three months. I am apt to fall in love quickly, but I soon find something that I don’t like about him. I change my mind quickly. I’m not haunted by my past loves. I try to go to school every day. I don’t put any trust in teachers, because they are not my family. My friends are important. I have a lot of things I want to do. My dream is to be a nursery nurse. I want to go on to vocational school. I like children.” |
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| Case 18 (15-year-old): “When my mother abused me, I intended to commit suicide and cut my wrist. I’m always lost in thought in a dark room. My family is, if anything, poor. When I was in the sixth grade in elementary school, I did enjo-kosai three times with a man over 30 years old by a party phone line. After that, he annoyed me to call him. He made me sick. He gave me money. I did enjo-kosai with another man. He told me he did enjo-kosai the first time when I was in the first grade of junior high school. He said to me, ‘I saw enjo-kosai was like this...’ and gave me money. I usually go to school. I like teachers. My dream is to get married and live happily.” |
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| Case 19 (17-year-old): “My parents both died. My family is poor, and my older sister works at another place. My father used to be violent to me. I’m looking for a person who gives me money tonight. My mother deserted me. When I was 16, I was raped and had an abortion. I have participated in reckless driving just once. I have intended to jump off the roof of a building.” |
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| Case 20 (17-year-old): “My parents sometimes are violent to me. I usually go to school, but I want to quit school. I intend to enjoy a nightclub tonight. I’ve never used drugs and I hate them. I haven’t participated in reckless driving, but I have been tempted by a gang. I have thought of suicide. I feel tired. I want to earn money. My dream is to work in the apparel business and make money.” |
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| Case 21 (16-year-old): “My family is poor. When I entered elementary school, my parents divorced and my father went away, perhaps because of a quarrel with my mother. My mother is a moody person and is sometimes violent. As soon as I became a student in junior high school, I joined a sports club, but I quit it right way. My mother usually prepares our supper. My mother won’t desert me, I’m quite sure. When I was in the third grade of junior high school, I had sex with a man whom I got to know from my homepage. I want to make money. My dream is to be a bride. I haven’t decided what to do after graduation yet, but my mother will make me go on to college.” |
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| Case 22 (16-year-old): “I’m in the second grade of high school. My school is famous for students who go on to university. My grandfather is yakuza, so my family does not have financial difficulties at all. I want to work in the field of welfare or medical practice, because I want to keep on working after marriage. I cut my wrist, but because I want to wear short sleeves, now I let my head hit against the wall. I didn’t go to junior high school from the first grade to the second. I studied by myself. When I went to junior high school, I sometimes went not to the classroom but to the sickroom. I like to be devoted to a person whom I love. When I selected a high school, my boyfriend asked me to go to the same school together with him, and we did. As soon as we entered high school, we broke up. I’m often caught by the police for loitering late at night, and the police usually send me home in a police patrol car. But the police warn me that I will be sent to a juvenile classification home next time. I was arrested for not wearing a helmet when my friend gave me a ride on a motorcycle. I have done enjo-kosai and worked at a sexual massage parlor. I’m very worried about going on to school. My school tries to make me go on to university, and my parents, too. I haven’t been getting along very well with my parents these days. I think university is a place where people go who have no goals. I want to go to vocational school to study care work or nursing.” |