| Literature DB >> 29787612 |
Harper G Hubbeling1, Shoshana M Rosenberg1,2, Maria Cecilia González-Robledo3, Julia G Cohn4, Cynthia Villarreal-Garza5,6,7, Ann H Partridge1,2, Felicia M Knaul8,9,10,11.
Abstract
OBJECTIVE: Young breast cancer survivors in Mexico face distinct psychosocial challenges that have not been characterized. This study aims to describe the psychosocial needs of young breast cancer survivors in Mexico at 5 or more years of survivorship, identifying areas of focus for early interventions.Entities:
Mesh:
Year: 2018 PMID: 29787612 PMCID: PMC5963789 DOI: 10.1371/journal.pone.0197931
Source DB: PubMed Journal: PLoS One ISSN: 1932-6203 Impact factor: 3.240
Demographic and clinical characteristics.
| Demographic characteristics | Mean, range | |
| 36.0, 31–40 | ||
| 43.4, 37–53 | ||
| 17/25 (68%) | ||
| 18/25 (72%) | ||
| 19/25 (76%) | ||
| 19/25 (76%) | ||
| 18/25 (72%) | ||
| 16/25 (64%) | ||
| 5/25 (20%) | ||
| 9/25 (36%) | ||
| 4/25 (16%) | ||
| 1.5, 0–6 | ||
| 4,288, 1,000–15,000 | ||
| 3/25 (12%) | ||
| 13/25 (52%) | ||
| 8/25 (32%) | ||
| 17/25 (68%) | ||
| 10.9, 4–16 | ||
| 8/25 (32%) | ||
| 6/25 (24%) | ||
| 11/25 (44%) | ||
| Clinical characteristics | Mean, range | |
| 18/25 (72%) | ||
| 7/25 (28%) | ||
| 6/25 (24%) | ||
| 15/25 (60%) | ||
| 4/25 (16%) | ||
| 24/25 (96%) | ||
| 19/25 (76%) | ||
| 15/25 (60%) | ||
| 7.2, 5–14 | ||
Quotations representative of Category 1: Fertility.
| (11) [Did you want more children?] “As a woman I can say anyone would want more. But, I am no longer interested in that truthfully. What matters to me is my health…” [Were you concerned about fertility?] “No. It never even crossed my mind. The only thing I was concerned with was getting cured.” | |
| (19) [Did you discuss fertility with your doctor?] “At that moment, the only thing I thought about was my health…” | |
| (11) “I said cancer, the first thing one thinks of is death, no? What cancer is, I didn’t know. I knew, for me, it was death.” | |
| (10) “My husband said, ‘There is no problem, we have two and that is good. We have a girl, we have a boy, and we are not going to have another one.’ But I said to myself, ‘I want another.’ But it can no longer be. Lately I tell my husband, ‘Hey, we are going to have another baby.’ ‘You’re crazy,’ he says, ‘you’re crazy. You know that you can’t.’” | |
| (22) [Are you concerned about fertility?] “To be a mom… I don’t have periods since chemotherapy. I haven’t yet asked the doctors, I’m afraid to ask… My cousin who just got his medical license said it is possible for me to have a baby.” | |
| (20) “Yes, I would have liked to have gotten married, had more children… but, once you have the disease, oh, why bother having children now? Since I do not know if I am going to be able to spend more time with them.” | |
| (9) [Are you concerned about fertility?] “No, another child? What if it has my same problem? No, no, no.” | |
| (8) [Did you want more children?] “Before, I used to say ‘I wish I had a son so that he could keep me company.’ Now if I had (had a child) I would have to say, ‘My son is suffering.’” |
Quotations representative of Subcategory 2a: Body image.
| (17) [Has your self-confidence changed?] “Before the surgery, before all this, I complained about everything. Why am I fat? Why do I have straight hair, not curly hair? Right? Well, when you do not have hair—whatever. And I think we are all the same, women. Except right now, I am not equal to a woman. *crying*” | |
| (9) [Are you less interested in your physical appearance?] “Yes, I believe that happened. They always tell me, ‘Put make-up on, fix yourself up, do this, do that.’ And I say, ‘What for?’ Yes, I entered that sort of depression.” | |
| (3) [Are you less interested in your physical appearance?] “Well, no. Because I try to maintain normal self-esteem. I do not like to see myself naked in the mirror. I do not like to see myself without a part of my body. I change without looking at myself. So I look at myself in the mirror only when I have my clothes on or the prosthesis is on.” | |
| (20) [Have you felt dissatisfied with your body?] “No. Well at first after surgery being without a breast is terrible. But you get used to it, over time. And it really proves that a breast does not prevent you from living life. You see on the metro, many people missing an arm, a leg, blind. I just say, ‘Well, this is something small that doesn’t keep me from walking.’” | |
| (16) [Was it hard to talk to your kids?] “Yes because I saw myself and I felt bad they had taken my breast. But then, I said, ‘No. Thank God. Because it was taken, I live.’ Then I was assimilating, and now it’s normal for me, that I don’t have my chest.” | |
| (8) [Could you describe the changes you’ve experienced?] “The change was my breast because the loss made me feel insecure, bad. But I was seeing a psychologist here in the hospital and it lifted my spirits and I got over it.” | |
| (15) “It happened the moment I saw myself after surgery.. it was at that moment that my mother, a very strong person, made me see: you are not a breast.. ‘I had you without breasts,’ she said, ‘and you are not that, and if you’re alive and if you lose a breast, so what?’ So that’s what got me going, too.” | |
| (4) “With regards to my children, I was very sorry they saw me without hair. I would put on my wig and my cap. But one day I came out of the bathroom without my hair, completely bald, and my son saw me and I saw him and I said, ‘He’s going to cry.’ But instead, he says, ‘Oh, Lex Luthor!’ That taught me a lot: that there is nothing wrong. My own son taught me, that is the way it is. Since then, I’ve valued many things about my body as well.” | |
| (9) [Has your self-confidence changed?] “Yes. I feel that now it does not matter so much to be beautiful or dress a specific way. What matters is what you have inside. [More confidence?] More confidence, yes.” | |
| (17) [Describe your mood in the last week] “Good. Nothing. Well, I think for me this is not going to end until.. I think until I get the implant. Because one does feel incomplete, not well. I think that is what prevents you from being in a good mood.” | |
| (5) [What makes you happiest right now?] “Now I am calm because, despite the depression I have and all that, I feel good. I look good. I had a reconstruction of both breasts so I'm calm. I'm fine with what I have.” | |
| (8) [Did you need more help?] “I do need someone to help me pay for reconstruction surgery because I do not have the resources truthfully. A doctor raised my spirits because he told me, ‘Don’t be sad, there are reconstructive surgeries available. You’re young and you’re going to get reconstruction.’ But I didn’t know how much it was going to cost.” | |
| (9) [Did you want reconstruction from the start?] “At first? No. I didn’t think about it, I wanted to be healthy. But now, yes.” | |
| (3) [Did they ask you if you wanted reconstruction?] “I heard that the most aggressive cancer returned on a reconstructed breast. So I chose not to. I said, ‘I’d better stay this way so it will not happen again.’” | |
| (5) [Did they ask you if you wanted reconstruction?] “The doctor said it was necessary because of my age . . . I had to reconstruct my breast. There was that doubt in me that said, ‘That’s vanity, I don’t need to do it.’ And the doctor told me, ‘No, you do. You are so young. Why do you want to stay like this? You have to do it and we will.’ So I said ‘Well it’s fine, let’s do it then.’” | |
| (9) “And then they didn’t reconstruct my breast. [Why not?] They never told me, ‘Hey there’s this, you can do this.’ No. Never. I see that a lot of women did get breast reconstruction, but not me. [Did they ask you if you wanted reconstruction when you had your mastectomy surgery?] No, not at all.” | |
| (4) “I would’ve liked to have plastic surgery, but my appointments have been canceled. I don’t know if it’s because seven years have passed? Do they give priority to those just getting out of surgery? I don’t know why. There isn’t much communication right now. There is no one to address.” | |
| (3) “To my husband, I would say, ‘Don’t look at me. I don’t want you to see me.’ And he says, ‘Noooo, why? I love you.’ He accepted that I was not naked but wearing a shirt. I didn’t allow him to see me. And he accepted it. That helped me a lot.” | |
| (10) [Was hair loss difficult?] “No. No. I felt happy without hair and my children and my family, on my husband’s side, would tell me that I was, ‘Uncle Lucas’ and I liked it. My husband said to me, ‘You look pretty,’ and he kissed my scalp.” | |
| (5) “Seeing my body without breasts, that kind of woke me up to a lot of things, right? Sometimes here is this person with you, but it’s like they really aren’t here with you. Sometimes the person next to you makes you feel like you are alone.” |
Quotations representative of Subcategory 2b: Intimate partners.
| (3) [Has your perspective on marriage changed?] “Yes. I value my husband very much because I saw his interest in me. I see his support. When my mom was sick my dad left her. I had that imprinted in my mind, that one has to handle things alone. With my illness, I saw that my husband's support was very different. He never left me.” | |
| (16) [Has your relationship with your partner changed?] “Yes it has changed. He supports me more in the house and no longer wants me to work so hard. ‘If you want, don’t go to work and stay at home with the children, I will go,’ he says.” | |
| (3) [Has the support you received made you feel better?] “Yes. Especially my husband. He is very affectionate, very detailed, even the small things. He tells me, ‘Come, let’s go for a walk.’ Or, ‘I’ll buy you an ice cream,’ and then we talk for a long time. It distracts me a lot.” | |
| (17) [Has the support you received made you feel better?] “When you get the diagnosis you think, ‘This will end our life as a couple.’ Fortunately that was not the case. My husband was here with me.” | |
| (9) [Do you have a partner?] “When I got cancer, I had my partner, but he left.” [Because of cancer?] Mmhmm.” | |
| (4) “With my husband, I had many problems. Because I did not have my chest, or out of jealousy, I don’t know. I felt very bad and to date we have managed to fix a lot of things, but not everything.” | |
| (4) “My husband is a burden to me. It’s more of a weight, but I’m afraid to leave him. I’m scared. He doesn’t help me, but since I lost many things, I lost my parents, my health and everything. The little bit that he does support me, in fact it is very little—for me it is a lot.” | |
| (5) [Has your partner’s support made you feel better?] “At one point, I needed more company, more closeness and he did not provide that. He was present in another way, bringing me to the hospital, taking care of my medication. But emotionally, I felt he was very far from me.” | |
| (4) [What are you most concerned about at the moment?] “The safety of my children. If my husband cannot give them that, neither economically or emotionally.. if I get sick, what would happen to them?” | |
| (3) [Has your relationship with your partner changed?] “Since the diagnosis, he has supported me in the sense that he does not sleep with me. He sleeps in another room. At first I said, ‘poor guy.’ But he would tell me, ‘No. Don’t worry. I'm ok. I don’t want to hurt you. I'm afraid that I’m going to move around and I’m going to hurt you.’ In that sense, he has helped me.” | |
| (5) [Has your relationship with your partner changed?] “He changed a lot because when he was told his wife had cancer, and it was very advanced, that day he took his pillow, his blanket, and left my bed. Then, although he walked beside me for the cancer process and my consults, emotionally he did not. He was as a companion, a person concerned about me, but emotionally, he stepped aside.” | |
| (18) [Differences from being young?] “My husband has helped me a lot in that respect. He has shown me that it does not matter. We enjoy life sexually with the same intensity, the same lifelong desires.” | |
| (10) “Previously I was not very communicative with my husband or my children. I would go from my work to the house, ‘Are you going to eat?’ ‘Yes’ and that was it. We never sat down to talk, ‘Oh look at this’ etc. Open communication was followed by change in my marriage and my relationship with my children because my husband came closer to me and I to him. He takes care of me and that is the reality.” | |
| (7) [Do you have a hard time talking about cancer?] “Yes. He didn’t understand my pain very well or my feeling of being mutilated. He started to understand, little by little. He started reading a lot. He’s a man who reads a lot. He investigates.” | |
| (5) [Do you have a hard time talking about cancer?] “Yes, it has been a lot of work, yes. Now I have to think about how I can bring up the topic. I could not talk about it before at all, no.” | |
| (21) [Do you have a hard time talking about cancer?] “Right now, they always encourage me, ‘You had cancer, you do not have it anymore. You are not sick; you are as normal as anyone. We don’t want to talk about it anymore.’ There are times when I feel like talking about (cancer) but he does not.” | |
| (20) [Have you felt less or more feminine?] “At first we all feel less feminine because of the treatment, especially losing a breast. You think, ‘Ay! I don’t have a breast, and who is going to look at me?’ Then you think, ‘No. If a person is going to want me, it’s going to be with everything I have.’” | |
| (4) “I think about how I could possibly have another partner if I don’t have my chest? I don’t know how I could possibly have another partner.” | |
| (12) [Has your interest in a relationship changed?] “At this stage, I feel like to look for another partner . . . I feel like a partner isn’t going to provide for me because of the disease I have. Because it does come with a lot of expenses.” | |
| (20) [Is it harder for you to establish a relationship?] “Yes, one is flirtatious, are you not? Haha. The boys always catch one’s eye. But because of this illness you aren’t flirtatious anymore, and then the more you think about it, what’s the point? Especially because I don’t know if I could tell them what I have. So I find it difficult to enter into a relationship. It’s not going to be a normal relationship anymore, is it?” |
Quotations representative of Category 3: Employment.
| (7) [What was your biggest support?] “I took refuge in work, I just worked.” | |
| (17) [Did you leave your job?] “Well, I have a business, a stationery shop . . . I didn’t leave it, on the contrary, I think that’s what helps me to not think about unpleasant things. I think it was a good distraction. I was trying to have a normal life.” | |
| (4) [Did you quit your job?] “No. I’m still working. During and after…I dedicate myself to making costumes. I had to make a lot of chicken costumes, for kindergarten, I had three days to deliver these costumes and I still had to sew in all the little faces. I brought them and I sewed in eyes and noses during chemotherapy and a nurse told me, ‘Oh nice, to distract yourself.’ I said, ‘If you only knew it was an emergency,’ haha. That helped me. It helped me be active and not be ‘sick.’” | |
| (14) [Are you worried about being fired?] “Sometimes, yes. I worry because my daughters are still in school. I wouldn’t say they are little girls, but they do still need me.” | |
| (20) [Did you have to quit your job?] “…It has taken me a long time to get myself back to work. I now dedicate a lot more to my child because.. the truth is, with this, no one knows when, right? So I spend more time with my little girl and work somewhere where I don’t get absorbed for a long time. A job where you don’t have to be around all day.” | |
| (10) [Was it difficult to find a job?] “I like to be honest when I apply for a job. I say, ‘I have cancer and I have to go to therapies and consults.’ They tell me, ‘We will not grant you permission.’ ‘Okay. Perfect. Thank you very much and see you later.’” | |
| (8) [Was it difficult to find a job?] “Yes it was difficult because, in reality, since I have to go to my appointments, not everyone says, ‘Oh yes, go ahead and take a day off.’” | |
| (8) “My life changed completely. Because my arm doesn’t work 100% as it did before because of the nodes removed. My doctor said it couldn’t carry half a kilo anymore because I run the risk of it getting inflamed if I force it. So since I don’t have an education, I have to do factory work or things like that, and then, yes, it’s more complicated, but, well, there I go.” | |
| (9) [Things to make life easier?] “Employment. Work is not easy to come by. And with my hand, well . . . If there were programs that could help us financially and teach us to do things to get ahead . . . that will help us find employment.” | |
| (10) [Have you returned to work?] “No. No one wants to hire a cancer patient. We are no good to them. Yes, discrimination. We are no use; we no longer have the strength to do the job. Yes, they see it like that. So, they no longer hire us.” | |
| (9) [Has it been difficult to find a job?] “With my problem, nobody will give me a job. [Why?] Because I have a history of cancer. They don’t say it out loud, but it’s true. It is very difficult for a cancer patient to get a job. It is as if one is no longer of any use, or if one becomes ill, they assume one will just abandon the job. But no, they no longer give us work. So here I am with my mom, washing dishes.” | |
| (16) [Has it been hard to find a job?] “..If you have this disease, they no longer want to hire you because they think you only came for the insurance and benefits.” | |
| (23) “‘We will call you,’ (potential employers) say, then the medical record arrives and they never speak to me again. It fills me with impotence and desperation… I am a woman who likes to work.” | |
| (20) [Do you feel there is hiring discrimination?] “…I don’t think I would tell anyone that I had.. I had experienced this. [Due to fear?] Exactly. Maybe I won’t say it.” | |
| (20) [How have co-workers reacted?] “Oh, I honestly haven’t talked to them about my illness. I feel it’s something private.” |
Quotations representative of Subcategory 4a: Family.
| (15) “This has had a negative impact on my children. I was always with them. Then the moment they diagnosed me and I came to the hospital, I left them with their dad. Then my children were in the streets, doing things they didn’t do before. And my husband also started playing cards. He didn’t gamble before. It is as if it is all my fault.” | |
| (17) [Things to make life easier?] “. . .To be able to not to worry about my family. Going through chemo and knowing that my mom is out there, she’s worried. I think you care more about those outside and not the ones inside because we know we are being taken care of. To think she had to wait so many hours. I was most worried about that, ahhh but she HAD to come.” | |
| (4) “I didn’t have anyone to leave my children with. I brought them here and they were in the car, they ate breakfast in the sun and I was here in chemotherapy. I think childcare is very important because I was worried that my kids were out there.” | |
| (6) “Well, my family became very sad. They suffered more than I did. When you have control, you do not suffer. But seeing other people suffer, that is what worried me.” | |
| (4) [Requests for your medical team?] “. . .The husband is also affected by this. One usually thinks, ‘Oh poor her,’ but the husband also suffers. The husband should also receive counseling along with the wife.” | |
| (3) [Things to make life easier?] “…My children were aware of the disease. It has been very difficult for them. My son, the middle one, I saw him living in fear. When I slept, he would put a mirror under my nose to see if I was breathing. I saw the anguish in him. If he had not been like this, I wouldn’t have.. my anguish was more for him than for me.” | |
| (14) “My mom also had cancer and it runs in her side of the family. I wish there were places where our daughters could go to get diagnosed early and prevent this type of disease.” | |
| (19) [Was it difficult to tell your children?] “Yes. They had to know. Sooner or later, they had to know.” | |
| (20) [Was it difficult to tell your children?] “Yes, it was difficult. In fact, he doesn’t know what I have. He only knows I’m going to the doctor. But the disease itself, I didn’t have to tell him. It wasn’t necessary for him to know.” | |
| (21) [How did your kids react?] “As children they didn’t know what it was, if it was bad or good, and therefore if it was something normal and nothing else. They listened to me and understood. But now they are older and understand more [Is it harder to talk to them now?] Yes, it is difficult because you don’t know how to start the conversation with them.” | |
| (17) “I think my children didn’t realize the effects of chemotherapy. Because what I tried to do was to get up early, get them ready for school, then when they left for school, I went to bed. So when they got back, I was a little better.” | |
| (14) [Was it hard to talk about cancer with your kids?] “I never thought my sons were going to react in that way: to grow, value life. They matured faster than usual.” | |
| (18) “It was difficult to cope with the time I wasn’t with them. But this test gave us a union, a maturity. I have wonderful children because they see life differently. Maybe because they experienced this trial, they don’t hang out in the streets. They are children who are very close to their family with many principles; maybe (cancer) made my children that way.” | |
| (6) [How about household chores?] “My husband helped me more around the house and now he has taken ownership of those chores because I couldn’t do some things while I was being treated. He started doing them, and kept doing them.” | |
| (14) [How about household chores?] “Before, they left everything to me. I had to go here and there. But not now, right now, everyone does something and if somebody cannot do something, the rest take over.” |
Quotations representative of Subcategory 4b: Social networks.
| (7) [Types of reactions?] “There are people who are with me to this day, celebrate every win with me, year after year, in this battle with cancer. Those who are Catholic pray and those who are yogis emit good vibes, haha! I learned after my illness to surround myself with people who support me. Those who didn’t, well, I lost their friendship, period. I have no grudges against them.” | |
| (6) [Types of reactions?] “Well, not all my friends gave me support. Some became distant for fear of how I might deteriorate. They told me after the fact, they said, ‘I was afraid to see you. I thought I was going to find you, I don’t even know how.’” | |
| (5) [Do you meet up with your friends like before?] “Well, no. Not much. Not as much because I have another vision of life. I don’t know. I became isolated. I liked to have friends; I really liked to talk. But now I like being alone and walking alone, seeing the forest, park—alone. I like thinking alone. After I recovered, that’s how I became, very isolated from everyone.” | |
| (23) “It’s really difficult for me to approach people. The words don’t come out of my mouth, it’s like there is a knot in my throat. Everything passes through my mind.. but it is like I swallowed a spider web down in there. Yes, I endured the treatment.. I don’t know why after all that, it’s now that I’m becoming this fearful, I feel very bad.” | |
| (23) “..I don’t know what is happening to me. Even I don’t understand it. I used to be very sociable, I went out with friends, with my family. Now I stay in my house and I don’t leave for anything, I don’t go out to eat–nothing. I don’t understand.” | |
| (21) “There are many people who can’t understand what cancer is. They think if you get near them, they’ll catch it.” | |
| (9) [Have you faced stigma?] “Yes, I do feel that I have, yes. If you go to a party, if you don’t drink, you are ‘this.’ If you don’t smoke, you are ‘that.’ If you want to go to bed early, you are a drag, the one who doesn’t want to be here. But only you know how far you can go.” | |
| (14) [Have you faced stigma?] “I believe you yourself make people reject you . . .people’s rejection is provoked by you. There is no such kind of rejection.” | |
| (21) “I saw others sick with BC and thought, ‘I’m going to get like that.’ But, no. My doctor explained -each person is different.” | |
| (18) “At first I didn’t want to talk about it. As a matter of fact, when I was here during the course of my treatment, I didn’t like to talk to anyone because they started saying, ‘That's what happened to my family.’ I didn’t want to imagine that was what was happening to me. I knew I was a different person with a different cancer and I preferred at best, saying, ‘Good afternoon,’ but not talking about cancer. Because I felt like I was going to create mountains in my mind.” | |
| (14) “The young ladies of the ‘Challenges’ group taught us many good things. Truthfully, they did help me a lot spiritually, with the strength, will, and discipline that one needs to get out of that hole into which so many of us fall.” | |
| (14) [How do you see your future?] “Well, with my daughters, relatives, sisters, I advise them to constantly check themselves. I try to encourage the people I know not to be afraid of operations or treatments or those difficult tests that are required, like biopsies or mammography. [Do you consider yourself recovered?] Yes, I see myself as recovered and with the desire to move on and be a person that can be approached with questions so that they can see in me that one can survive.” | |
| (18) “At first, people were morbid, ‘Ay she has cancer,’ and so on. But then I got over it. That doesn’t affect me. On the contrary, I talk about it so people start getting tested early.” | |
| (17) [Has your life perspective changed?] “Yes, it has changed me and I feel that something else still needs to be done. Maybe having been given this precise life experience, I think I’m still not in a position to give encouragement and motivation to others, because I lack these myself on most days, however . . . this is not going to end until it ends.” | |
| (9) [Do you consider yourself a survivor?] “After I came to the hospital I met five girlfriends . . . Of those five, only two are left . . . The other three, who were younger, have died. How could I not consider myself a survivor? Of course I do, thank God.” | |
| (21) [Do you consider yourself a survivor?] “I’m still afraid because the patients who have had the disease longer, they tell us that in five, six years at best, it comes back somewhere else.” | |
| (7) [Things that would’ve made life easier?] “That after I got sick two great friends would not have gotten sick and they would not have died of this. They were diagnosed with cancer after I was and I motivated them and they did not *crying* It is difficult because you lose hope. You see yourself as someone who could survive, but two of your friends could not. You ask, ‘Why? What am I doing here now?’” |
Quotations representative of Subcategory 5a: Psychological care.
| (11) “It was very unpleasant news when I got the diagnosis. When I left, I felt bad at that moment. I felt very badly. Believe me when I say that I didn’t care if I got hit by a car in that moment. I don’t care, I told myself, that way I would die in one go.” | |
| (8) “I cried a lot, a lot, a lot. I would say, ‘Doctor, it’s just that I feel very bad.’ I thought about suicide. I said I’ll just grab a gun and kill myself and I’ll be done. Because it was so much pain and I didn’t know how the process would go with the medicines, everything that was going to happen. I didn’t know anything about that. I said, ‘Cancer, well I'm going to die either way. I won’t be cured of this disease. Why not just kill myself now and get it all over with, no?” | |
| (14) “I was bathing and I put soap in my hair. When I went to remove the soap, all the hair came off on my face and I couldn’t breathe. I got really nervous, yes, a phobia of not being able to breathe and from seeing my hair fall out. So that caused me a lot of havoc.. I had to call my husband to help me out of the bathroom because I was drowning.. it was a trauma.” | |
| (17) [Describe the changes you’ve observed since diagnosis?] “I still cannot overcome this. *crying* Three years have passed since I finished treatment and—no. I still think this will never be over.” | |
| (17) “I still feel sorry for myself and I can’t get over this. [Is there something that could help you?] Well, no. I don’t think so. [Does time help?] Well, no. No. When you get home after surgery, you say, ‘It has to happen, doesn’t it? It has to happen. Days will pass and I'm going to be better.’ And right now, for example, five years have passed, waiting for this to change. I tear up easily now, I cry all the time.” | |
| (6) [Ways to improve your care?] “. . . During checkups, you always have this nagging feeling, right? Right now, I come once a year and I feel that is too long. I’d rather come every month and be safe. A lot can happen in a year.” | |
| (21) [Ways to improve your care?] “Let me have an MRI every year to see what cancer now affects my body. Because with a mammogram of only the breast and nothing else, I won’t know if I have cancer somewhere else. Also, give us a copy of every exam done here so we have that information ourselves.” | |
| (21) “I come from very far away and then they do nothing else but review the tests we were sent to do and a physical exam and that’s it. It would make us feel more confident if they did a little more.” | |
| (10) “I felt a little anxious, anguished. Because I’m thinking, ‘They’re not treating me like they used to treat me. The disease is going to come back and I won’t know.’ Why? Because I'm not going to the doctor every eight days. I'm not going to get checked on. Yes, it gave me anguish and I felt so worried. Because they gave me appointments every month, then two months, then three months, four, five and now six. So now I go every six months and I still feel distressed by the same thing that I was seen more often and not anymore. The anguish is for everything. Even if we say, ‘We are healed, we are cured of the disease,’ and, ‘I am no longer afraid of that,’ there is also that possibility, that anguish, biting at us that the disease can come back and can get you, that it isn’t going to end.” | |
| (9) “There should be more help for those of us who, since we are only seen once each year, often we don’t know what is available, what new programs there are for us here at the hospital.” | |
| (8) “It was so bad that when I entered the hospital, it was already starting, *retching impression.* I hadn’t begun my treatment and I was *retching impression.* It was psychological.” | |
| (11) [Things that would’ve made life easier?] “It would’ve been easier if I didn’t have to be in this place. The truth is, this is an unpleasant place. This place breaks my soul, because I already went through it. I can’t see patients like this because it breaks my soul to see them because I already lived it. I feel horrible for their families.” | |
| (14) “One comes and goes from here with fear because simply arriving, the smell of the chemotherapies . . . it’s almost like cats. I would get to the door, but I didn’t want to go in any further. The door was open but, ‘not any further, not any further.’” | |
| (4) [Ask for two things from your medical team] “After ten years, after eight, ask the patient how she feels, how she is doing. Above all they should make it like a law that they send in the psychologist with the other consults: chemo, radiation, and a psychologist. Make it the default. I think that is very important because I think my disease really didn’t affect me. It really was a small tumor and they got it out and that’s it! But, the psychological part… The physical effects, well, yes, the chemo gives you a disgusting feeling and you feel bad and all that. But the fear, your family, your children, the morale… that hurts terribly. Yes, you should see it as a special department that exists so women are cared for psychologically and have a better quality of life. We are being cured, physically, but what becomes of our minds? How are we psychologically?” | |
| (4) “I’ve been thinking a lot about going to the psychologist. I don’t have the opportunity right now because of work and everything. But I have felt very sad. I feel like going away, living elsewhere. I’ve really been feeling that I want to leave.” | |
| (4) [Things that would’ve made life easier?] “You are naive when you first get cancer. If I had known then what I know now, I wouldn’t have worried so much. If I had been in a group, like the ‘Challenges’ group, or if there had been something like this interview where they asked me how it was going, or if I had gone to a psycho-oncologist it would have made it easier.” | |
| (4) “The psychologist said a few words that made things very clear. I went a few times. I asked him, ‘After cancer, what will my life be like?’ I didn’t know. I was still being treated. I asked if I was going to die and he said, ‘Not today.’ ‘More people die from accidents than cancer.’ And I said, ‘How can I avoid this? It’s killing me, the idea that I have cancer.’ And he tells me, ‘One has to learn to live with this. Learn that your whole life you’ll be coming to the hospital. All your life you will see sick people. It’s a way of life.’ So that helped me a lot to understand what was happening to me. I went to five sessions and I came to understand: why am I distressed if I have to come here the rest of my life anyway, right? You have to accept it.” | |
| (8) “I cried and I told my doctor, ‘I feel very bad, I feel very bad. I feel that I will not be able to go on’ …And he sent me to the psychologist and the psychologist told me, ‘No. This is a disease like any other and you have to make it. But if you are sad and you cry and you don’t eat and you are suffering, the medicine will not work. You have depression and 50% of this is hope and 50% is the medication. So right now cry all you want to cry and then you’re not going to cry anymore.’ And so I cried and cried and cried. But then I said, ‘No.’ One day, just like that, I said, ‘That was enough. I have to get better.’” |
Quotations representative of Subcategory 5b: Informational needs.
| (6) “Well, I can say that when you talk to others who suffered from the same (disease), it generates doubts. Because they tell you that you need to come to this hospital right away for any illness. Actually I was never told that by my doctor, so I get treated elsewhere when it’s not related to my cancer. But maybe you should be more careful, for example, with something like pap smears, maybe you should go to someone who is a specialist?” | |
| (6) [Things that would’ve made life easier?] “One arrives here very fearful and you don’t know how to do things properly.. At first I would run all over the place and I was very worried. I didn’t know the hospital. At first we needed a little more help with all the logistics, the administrative things, sometimes you have no idea how to do them and you are afraid.” | |
| (3) “My nails fell off. I was very fond of them. It didn’t hurt, but they started to secrete fluids and then came off my feet and hands. It traumatized me. That was what affected me the most, more than when my hair fell off. I think it would help if we were kept more informed of the changes that were going to happen to our bodies. I didn’t know that your nails could fall off. I expected my hair to fall off, eyebrows, but I didn’t expect it to escalate to my nails. When I had an opportunity, I asked the doctor and she explained it. That is when I was reassured that it was normal.” | |
| (9) [Ways to improve your care?] “When one comes out of surgery, they don’t tell us that we are at risk. I used a hammer and my arm became very inflamed. Yes, more information.” | |
| (17) [Ways to improve your care?] “Be a little more explicit. Let’s talk a little more. More information. We do what they tell us and we know we are with the specialists, but there are things that seem silly, doubts when we don’t know what is coming next or why something is happening.” |