| D.1.1. Start of therapy (29) “At first it was quite difficult. The first two weeks… yes, the whole “arrival-thing,” I just did not know what to do with myself and
I wasn’t confident enough yet to approach people
.” (1.2)
“At first I was very insecure…
just the insecurity of being in a group
, especially in the mornings and evenings during these mood scale exercises, which totally confused me at first.” (1.18)
“Let’s put it this way: I’m
not a group person
. So the individual therapy sessions were really important and meaningful for me. In the group session, I just had the problem that my fellow patients didn’t know why I’m here. Accordingly, I
couldn’t open up in
the way I might have needed to. “ (1.13)
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| I.1.1. Start of therapy (20) “Actually, you spend most of the time in therapy with them and so it’s always
a bit easier to open up to them,
because of that. I found that in general, in any case… so for some day-patients, I often thought that they should be inpatients really… I’ve definitely noticed that the people who were inpatients
got along far better among themselves
compared to the day patients. You really noticed this. You are
much more open
with each other and you can talk about some things more easily.” (2.2)
“During the therapy, it was very strange to start with. In the beginning,
you had a week of time to yourself
. The intention was, probably, that you get to know the other patients, especially fellow patients, and to have time to yourself. It was
very depressing
. Because I was in
a strange environment, had nothing to do and was supposed to just potter around with myself
. That was very weird because usually, in everyday life, I’m always here and there and I was always on the move together with someone else. And here: this calmness.” (2.9)
“So for the first few weeks
it was hard for me to become part of the group
.” (2.17)
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| D.1.2. Experience of therapy (61)
“I found it
incredibly helpful to talk
about it and it was a relief, when I realized, it all become a little clearer. I was able to explain things to myself or I could change things.” (1.8)
“Yes, I had
a very close relationship
to one of my therapists. I felt very well understood and well taken care of there.” (1.1)
“Already after the first week, I noticed that I
felt comfortable
and that it was a place, somehow, where I could feel
safe
.” (1.18)
“The routine was
good for me
and the
task of working on myself
. At the time, I already noticed that it helps me.” (1.8)
“Really, everything was exhausting, I think. This was the first time that I ever had to really talk, because, usually, I
never talk about problems
. And there, you just had to talk, you had to join in, you had to accept this and that. I found that all just very tiring,” (1.17)
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| I.1.2. Experience of therapy (98) “…We’re all going through the same stuff, really. Everyone has their own problems, that’s for sure, but you can simply learn a lot from the others, also from the older ones. And many
opened my eyes
. So, I guess, the other patients were the best therapy! Definitely.” (2.9)
“It was all these conversations. Although they upset me,
but afterwards it always felt better
. I had a much clearer view of things.” (2.16)
“… I was glad that I was an inpatient. I wouldn’t have been able to guarantee that I would’ve come every day. And so I just knew that breakfast was at seven-thirty. It put
a little pressure on me
. This was beneficial for me.” (2.5)
“So I thought it was really hard work. After some therapies, I felt really knackered.” (2.12)
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| D.1.3. Involvement of current conflicts at home in therapy (21) “… and if I had difficulties or problems or other things, that I was able to work with them and discuss them
right on the very next day.
That was very helpful, really very helpful.” (1.6)
“And it is this being able to use things, that you could
use things, you’d learned right away
. And not learn stuff for eight weeks and then blast people around you with change.” (1.7)
“It was also
important to see for myself: “Look, you can really do this
. I am able to go to work or therapy in the morning and evening and come home again.” (1.5)
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| I.1.3. The clinic -a safe haven (37) “I was also glad that I was away from home. That I was simply out of the whole surroundings and was in a protected environment, where
it really was about me for once
. Because I have not taken care of myself for 40 years. But now I had eight weeks of time to realize that I also exist. And
I’m not under this pressure to come back home in the evening to feed my family, to do the ironing and washing etc. And especially with my boys at home, it was also important that they used the time to learn to be more independent.” (2.15)
“I found being inpatient was actually much better than being the other, because you are
completely away from home
. That is, you are actually
worry
-
free
. You have nothing to worry about. Your
head is free to focus on yourself
. That was something that really helped me an awful lot.” (2.7)
“And that is, what I think is valuable in inpatient treatment. That you are able to get that
necessary distance from home
.” (2.6)
“So, I just think that
the reference to normal, everyday life was a bit too small
.” (2.4)
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