Struggling to be/show oneself valuable and worthy to get care. One aspect of the meaning of being dependent on care--a study of one patient, his wife and two of his professional nurses.

Dependency on care has commonly been described negatively and as a problem that needs to be addressed. From a larger data material, interviews with an old, hospitalized man with a chronic disease, his wife and two of his professional nurses was selected to study. The aim was to illuminate the meaning of being dependent on care, when it appears "negative". A phenomenological-hermeneutic approach was used to interpret the material. The interpretation shows that dependency on care is reluctantly shown although it is expected to be expressed and/or respected as it is shown. This makes dependency on care camouflaged and the space to be dependent is limited. The meaning of being dependent on care is understood as a two-dimensional struggle for existence. One dimension of the struggle is about to be/show oneself worthy to get care, as dependency on care holds a fear to be abandoned. The other dimension of the struggle is about to be/show oneself valuable as a human being, as identity is built upon being able to manage oneself and be strong. The interpretation if reflected on can open up possibilities to improve the quality of life for patients who are dependent on care.